| | Afraid of STDs
While most of my family and friends think I'm completely nuts, I decided a board might be the best place to take my fears.
I am deathly afraid of STDs. My ex and I were in a monogamous relationship, for 5 years, where we did not use condoms. He was my first, and was tested for a wide range of STDs so I know that, logically, the risk of catching something from him was minimal. I made sure he was tested before having sex as I'm paranoid about everything. I have only been with two other men after him, and both of which were safe sex. While I know condoms don't prevent EVERYTHING, it's far safer to use them than not.
So here's where my nuttiness comes to play. I once convinced myself a tiny bump on my thigh was a genital wart. My OBGYN completely dismissed the idea and my latest pap, about a month ago, came back normal and HPV negative. I recently had a yeast infection, and became terrified I had chlyamadia or gonnorhea. Again, the tests came back negative. I had an ingrown hair, convinced myself it was herpes, and again, came back negative. I also once became utterly convinced I had HIV, the test was negative.
While this is probably a ton of information, I wish everything did not set me in a frenzy. All it will take to get my brain going crazy, is for me to learn of another STD lurking out there for me to be convinced I have it. While I firmly believe in being tested and assuring sexual health, I worry myself sick over everything.
Anyone have any suggestions on how to overcome this? I'm practically ready to commit myself to a nunnery to never worry about and STD/STI again. Or at least, nixing sex in the bud until I'm married.
I'm pretty sure my hypochondria is a result of my IBS. Before having gastro issues, I was never afraid of disease the way I am now.
Last edited by MsAnonymous; 02-25-2012 at 12:16 PM.