Re: Have a lost my mind need help please!
I'm sorry about your grandfather's death and your other grandfather's cancer. that right there will put a LOT of stress on anyone. my son has type I diabetes and has had low blood sugar events that have set me off into total anxiety and worry. i really feel for you right now.
i don't have the answers as i do the same things you do, i just want to say that you are not alone and there are many many of us who go through this too.
i think the first thing we have to do is STAY OFF HEALTH SITES!! i find that when i go looking for symptoms it's like one person says they have something and then there are one hundred replies saying that they have the same thing, or giving suggestions on what it would be based on their 'knowledge' of getting the worst case scenario off some web md type of site. it's like 'i am dizzy' .. so 30 people will be dizzy too, 10 will suggest 10 different diseases ranging from cancer to heart problems, and it's probably really an inner ear problem. so health sites are the worst for symptoms.
sometimes i like to read people's posts about their fears over something i don't worry about. like i'm not really worried about HIV myself... so if i read that you worry about it i kind of think, you are overworrying yourself and i'm 99% sure you don't have it. that makes me kind of look at my own worries and i think, what do people think of me when i'm freaking out about some rare weird disease of the week i think i have. it kind of brings me down to reality about how over worried and unrealistic i am.
good thing about being a hypochondriac is that if we DO have something it most likely will be found. and i mean a real disease. when we go to the doctor and tell them we have this .. and that... and they do all these tests and nothing shows up, i think we know it's anxiety symptoms. have you ever looked at a symptom checklist for anxiety? it's like three pages long!
blood tests are good. ecgs, echocardiograms, mri, ct scans, xrays, etc are all pretty good at finding stuff. if you feel like you have something and they can't find anything, it's probably your body reacting to anxiety. the other day i started an antibiotic. i was terrified i was going to go into anaphylactic shock or something over it just out of the blue. i had NO symptoms after taking it but i called the pharmacist anyways for assurance. she said don't worry if you start having an allergic reaction you will start off with a bad rash... well guess what, about 10 min after talking to her i started getting itchy and scratched myself red... then thought it was a rash. i did it to myself. my body , that sneaky thing knew EXACTLY what to do to freak me out!
i hope some of this helps. it helped me to even write it to you.