crazy2tryagain

To whom it may concern:

I haven't visited in a while but felt my recent life changes were important to share with the rest of you. Please forgive me if this seems long, but I think it's worth mentioning...so please, read on(this story has a strange twist).

On January 16, 2002, I suffered a m/c while in my 2nd trimester. It was devasting of coarse, but also heartbreaking to my children (now 8 and 10). It took my dh and I several years to get pg and it was lost on one cold dark evening. I went to the hospital where I stayed for 2 days and had a D&C. Unfortunately, my body didn't bounce back like I thought it should. After 4 months and 13 phonecalls to my doc, he agreed to have me undergo a laproscopy for further eval. It was discovered that there was a 2nd fetus that was not removed and it was now "toxic" to my body and making me sick. I had another D&C on April 19th, 2002.

After surgery, my doc informed me that I had endo and that getting pg again would be difficult. At his suggestion, I agreed to go on Lupron for 6mths and then begin Clomid and the HCG injection immediately following. Nothing worked and my pain came back as intense as it was after the m/c.

In May 2003, my doc agreed that unless I was willing to undergo more fertility, we should consider a hysterectomy as a last resort. I couldn't do it anymore. The last several months have taken so much of my life that I felt I had lost the desire to fight anymore and I agreed to the Surgery on August 14, 2003.

HOWEVER, In the middle of June, I noticed that I was crabby and irritable. I decided to take an antidepressent until I was through the surgery--but only took it for 4 days before stopping. Then, I noticed that I was more tired then usual and dizzy at times. I thought it would be best to see my doc again before the surgery.

AND GUESS WHAT!!! IM PREGNANT! YES ME!! My doctor can't believe it nor can the nurses in the office. I had my Blood test today and my HCG is a whopping 430! I'm just over 4 weeks and praying for a miracle that I will be able to keep this baby.

I appologize for the long post, but I was hoping that some of you would read this and realize that there is hope. I have struggled for years with my infertility and now, when I didn't expect it, I am blessed with a pregnancy that I thought I would never have again.

Best of luck to each of you! May God Bless you with a little miracle!