Scared all the meds. I've taken for mania cause my white cell ct. to drop (anti psychotics and neurontin). Now my pdoc. says I'm out of options - suggested shock therapy to break 4wk cycle of no sleep. That scares me so much. He also suggested the "date rape drug" which also terrifies me. I have leukopenia/neutropenia (low white cell ct. and am having to go to Cancer Center and may have to have a bone marrow biopsy if things don't improve). Any better suggestions?