I'm glad the test was normal. I understand how you feel about not being able to keep your baby happy. My husband can attest to many bouts of me crying because nothing I did could soothe my baby. He always seemed to be uncomfortable due to reflux, and feeding time was a nightmare instead of a time of joy for him. I hated seeing him in pain, and not being able to do anything.
We just switched formula, which the Dr. told me was not necessary, and he is getting a little bit better now. The Dr. wanted me to increase Prevacid to 2 times daily. Instead I switched formula, and stopped the Prevacid all together. He seems to be spitting up more, but there is no pain like before. It's only been a week, but things seem to be better. I'm sure my husband is happier now, not having to console 2 babies.
I have to say, there are times when I do tell my mother to come and help me. I have to. I need to give myself at least a few hours of "me" time, or else I'll fall apart. Granted, the "me" time usually consists of a bath, but it does help. It puts me in a better state to take care of Soren. I swear, nothing is worse than seeing your baby in pain, and the daily act of watching that can become overwhelming.
You are definitely in my thoughts.