*sigh*-not looking good so far - Infertility Message Board

paulieb · 02-21-2007, 08:36 AM

well, today is 12 DPO. DW poas this AM. even with the HCG trigger, it was still negative. ( i know, i know... it is still early) We are going out of town this weekend to my brother in law's for a birthday party, and were hoping to have some potential good news. Not looking good so far.

I really dont know how to handle this. this will be 5 full cycles of IUI - 3 with stims. this past round was the best so far, in terms of lining, follies, and donor, the yin and yang aligning.

I have a feeling that this is going to be a very very long weekend. I know that the cycle isnt a bust until the AF ***** shows up, but...

I am not feeling the vibe. last cycle we were so psyched that it was gonna work, we were crushed when it didn't. I feel like I am mentally preparing myself this round to just go through the motions. That is what it really feels like. I am becoming numb to anything that could happen.

She has had LOTS of symptoms, but all of them can be attributed to the Prometrium. She just wants to get off it. bloating, emotional roller coaster, nasua, light headedness, a case of the dropsies( but that is normal for her).

DW will be crushed (if) it doesnt work. All I can do is hold her head up when she cries. I dont know how I will react.

As always, I appreciate the good vibes. This board is like going to psychiatrist, without the office fees.

paulieb

TryN2BMommy · 02-21-2007, 08:45 AM

Paulie, I'm so sorry you and DW have to go through this. I can only imagine how heartbreaking it must be month after month of procedures with no success. I know it is hard enough for me to see AF come every month when we have only tried naturally. This month we will be doing our first IUI, and I am just terrified that we will be yet another couple trying again and again with no success. I'm hopeful, but afraid to be too hopeful. My BF thinks it is all a waste of time and wants to go straight to IVF, but there is no coverage for that and we simply can't afford it. So he definitely is numb about it...but still going through with it because it is our best option at this point. Anyway, I didn't mean to make this about me, I just know that it helps to see that people can kind of relate to what you are going through. I am sending HUGE cyber hugs out to you and DW. I will say many prayers for you guys that you do have that good news to share with your family.

Holly

lahc1 · 02-21-2007, 09:06 AM

Paulie, I am so sorry you are feeling like this cycle is a bust All this IF stuff just sends us on an emotional roller coaster. I've heard many people in your shoes end up with a BFP so I am hoping that you get a very pleasant surprise at the end of the weekend. Until then, sending you lots of +++++++++vibes.

Lori

ASPROUSEY05 · 02-21-2007, 09:17 AM

i am so sorry you and dw are going through this.. and i know you know there is still a chance, but i can def relate to taking a test just a few days early and then "getting down" but you still have some hope to hold onto.. either way i will be praying hard for you and dw and i hope it was just too early too tell, and that her hcg will double in the next 48 hrs and you will get a positive HPT!!!!!!

aimee

ALM · 02-21-2007, 09:24 AM

Hey Paulie. I am so sorry that you and DW are dealing with this right now. I want to echo the other ladies and say that there is still a chance that it is just too early. Are you guys at 12dpiui? I think you said you did do an IUI this month. Maybe you just need to wait until 14dpiui. My RE said to come in for beta at 14dpiui so, you see, it could just be too early to tell. I pray that is what is going on.

Good luck!!

Anna Leigh