Anyone see Friends - gotta give thanks to you all again - Infertility Message Board

mommawannabee · 05-02-2003, 06:17 AM

Good Friday Morning - just wondering if anyone watched Friends last night? The episode ended with me in tears when Monica got the news and just held her husband. Kudos to the producers for bringing reality to the show!

I guess my post is somewhat inspired by that episode, but also with Tessa's venting post. I hope you feel better soon, Tessa - I can only imagine how upset you are. I'm so sorry about the cancelled IUI.

I wanted to post my thoughts also because I'm feeling very thankful for all of you (these meds make me incredibly sappy, I've cried 3x this morning). I just want all of you to know that I'm tired of all of this infertility crap too.

I don't like that I have to limit my java to only a cup a day, I don't like that I can't enjoy as many glasses of wine that I want, I don't like that I can't give my husband a child naturally, but instead with medical help and yet I still get BFN's. I HATE building my hopes up with imagined bogus pregnany symptons each and every month only to get my heart broken with no results at the end. I hate that my insurance company - the insurance company I work for - won't even cover my infertility drugs and I hate that they've put a limit of $1500 on my treatment (what is this?? Like 2 ultrasounds? I know its not, I'm just being sarcastic). I hate even more that they won't pay for IVF, but yet to save money in the end, they will pay for a woman to terminate a miracle. Don't get me wrong, I'm not opposed to a woman's choice - but it just hits me the wrong way to know the reasoning behind the insurance's intent of payment.

But you know what? When I look at my husband, I see him holding our baby and this keeps me going.

Then I come to this board and find comfort in the fact that I'm not alone in the way that I feel and its okay that I feel this way.

So I just want to thank all of you for keeping me going.

snoopysmine · 05-02-2003, 07:09 AM

Hey mama.....Yes I too saw friends and I also was crying my eyes out..........

I have to agree that it hit so close to home......I really fall back on this message board and talking with everyone...I get soo excited when I see that someone has been able to achieve their dream and I too know that one day I will.

I can relate with the feelings of wanting to give your husband a child and I feel so bad that I cannot do this naturally. I often sometimes feel like I am such a failure but then I remember a posting that someone put up about us making it through if we are brought to it..(Of course thats not exactly how it goes....)

I am thankful that I am able to vent, laugh and cry with all of you ladies.....Thanks !!!

mommawannabee · 05-02-2003, 07:11 AM

Me too, Snoop

Minouche · 05-02-2003, 07:34 AM

I saw Friends yesterday night, momma! I thought it was so touching and their reaction was very realistic...of course, I was in tears...

momma, I am so thankful to this board too! I feel you guys so close, like really really close friends, that I can trust and that can totally understand me!

sometimes, I totally forget that I have never seen any of you (and probably never will)...but that doesn´t matter, b/c we understand each other deeply...sometimes I see my feelings expressed in somebody else´s post...and I think it is amazing!

mommawannabee · 05-02-2003, 07:41 AM

Minouche - that is so true! I'm finding myself talking about each and everyone of you to my hubby and to my other friends. It is amazing that so much of what I feel is expressed through others on this board.

That is a wonderful feeling!