losing a month and my sanity - Infertility Message Board

cathyw · 06-10-2003, 09:18 PM

Hey girls,
I got some bad news today, and I needed to vent. DH doesn't understand, you know men, so here I am. He and I planned a lovely romantic runaway 4 day weekend this past weekend, we ran away to Memphis and stayed at the Peabody for our 5 year anniversary which was Friday, and visited my uncle in town there. Anyway, AF made her visit Friday utterly squashing my romantic s****y evening. Put me in some kind of mood you can imagine. Luckily I drowned my sorrows the rest of the weekend in my uncle's homemade beers. Though dh's been having work issues too, so we both relaxed to the beer.
I got home yesterday, and thrown back into the throws of the working world, I called my doc this morning for to order another round of Clomid, to start today, since it's my day 5, but I was thinking I needed to go back to 50, I tried 100 this time around and I didn't ovulate, not really, my temps did this little bunny hop thing 3 days up then down, then tried again, and no, then I started ragging. I faxed them my charts from this month and last and the nurse called. Apparently my doc put in my chart that if I didn't get pg by the end of summer to give me an HSG. The sub assumed I'd done this, but Becky hadn't even brought it up to me. So, she's on vacation and with my questions, the doc in her place decided I need to have it. I know I'm babbling, but so, since the timing is right, this week, they've decided to do this procedure Friday. And they told me no clomid this month. That's the kicker, I am losing a month, and I just feel like I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm losing control, that I'm not the one fighting, by being told not to try this month, I feel like something has been taken away. Does anyone else feel this?
I told dh, about this procedure, I'm nervous, I'm not really sure what to expect, he was useless. I'm also a pretty modest person, and the idea of a roomful of folks, not my doctor digging around makes me queasy. I really trust my doc, she's a family friend, and 90% of my nerves are resultant that it's strangers, I think, I hope, but then again, I just don't want this, but yet at the same time, I'm curious to know the results. I have so much respect for you girls that have done this all before, and made it through the rain.
How many of you have had this HSG before? Can you describe it? I had a CT scan last year with dye injected into me, made me warm all over and I had to pee, and an MRI that did it too, but this is more quantity, and it scares me more. Will I be good to drive after, they talk about cramping, is it bad? I told my boss I'm not going to work, even though the appointment isn't until 12:30, I theoretically could go in, but I figure with my nerves, I'll be up all night, and will need a power nap, at the very least.
Anyway, I'm fairly nervous about the whole thing, and I just needed to vent. A lot. I had no idea we were taking this next step, and felt really caught off guard, calling in fora refill and I end up going in to get shot up, not my idea of a way to spend a day off. I really appreciate your input and your support.
Thanks,
Cathy

mommawannabee · 06-11-2003, 05:58 AM

Hi Cathy -
I'm sorry you are hurting, but its gonna be okay.

I can promise you that. I've had 2 HSGs and they are nuttin' honey. You just undress, lie back on a table and the RE inserts a spec inside of you as if you were getting a pap smear and then inserts a catheter into your cervix where they inject the dye. You might have a bit of pinching, but its not bad. I have a high tolerance of pain, so I rejected the pills that they give you for the minimal cramping. If you are prone to pain easy, I suggest something that they should offer you before the procedure - it might even help relax you.

Anyway, you are able to see at that time what the RE sees - the dye flowing up through to your uterus and then through your tubes. Its pretty amazing actually - I had a kink in my left tube (unlike on my first HSG) and it was because of that damned paratubal cyst my quack of an RE didn't see on my first lap, but the dye went through. And then you are done! Very quick and easy - you can do it! You will need to wear a pad after that because you'll have a little leakage, but its a piece of cake, Cathy.

Hope your day today is better than your night last night. HUGS to you.

Lisa

snoopysmine · 06-11-2003, 06:01 AM

Cathy ...I know this is very frustrating for you....Lord knows that it as been for me......

I was on my first IVF try after 3 failed IUI's that was cancelled after a month and a half of them trying to surpress my ovaries.......To make a very long story short, my IVF cycle was cancelled after all the BCP's and all of the Lupron Injections.....I was told that we would start the IVF attempt again when I started my cycle...well, needless to say, I started 2 days after the nurse told me this and I was so excited (Funny huh.....when some of us are so excited to get AF!!!!) but I was crushed when the nurse told me that this bleeding I was getting was not AF but almost like it.....Ughhhh....talk abot being crushed!!!! So now I am here waiting for my next cycle to start so I can begin the next round of BCP's ..........

I can vent all day long if I could about my Infertility battle and I am sure you can too...that is what I feel is so great about this board...sometimes you can just log on and read and not have to say anything because someone else has answered your question for you on other postings......We don't have to go through this alone!!!

I wish you the best of luck