ME UPDATE. . . . - Infertility Message Board

MaryAnn1970 · 07-06-2003, 07:06 PM

CD 11 for me. Tomorrow I go see if I have any follies from the Clomid. Hopefully, I will have IUI by Wed or Thurs. We still have the 3 hour long appt. for the donor IVF on Friday. I will be already to go if this cycle is a bust.

I had a terrible dream last night about my RE. . . that I went in for an appt. and I requested another stim cycle IUI. . he told me I was wasting his time and the money that I was paying could barely support his staff. He said that the BIG money for him was the IVF cycles and my IUI's were a waste of his time. I WOKE UP SO ****ED!!!!!! NOW I HAVE TO SEE HIM TOMORROW.

I have been so depressed lately. I have felt so outta place and my world feels like it's turned upside down!! Ever since I have been going about this whole infertility thing the aggressive way, I have felt so different. It's hard to explain. I am such a happy person usually, just looking forward to the weekends used to make me happy, BUT NOW NOTHING MAKES ME HAPPY!!!!!

My poor dh keeps asking me why so gloomy? I don't even want to do daily things, clean house, go shopping. I love that sh**! But now I can hardly stand the thought. When I do go shopping, I feel like I am on auto pilot. AAAAACK!!!!! What is wrong with me?? Thanks for listening

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tazink · 07-06-2003, 08:31 PM

good luck tomorrow! I hope follies are all good and healthy

let us know.

Try smilin - I know it sounds easier than it is but it really does help

(((hugs)))

Taz

laura1 · 07-06-2003, 09:06 PM

MaryAnn... it's SO normal for you to feel that way - aside from all the raging/artificial hormones in our systems, we also have this huge, out-of-our-control desire.

I think it's important to try to shake off the blues when they come. I mean, acknowledge the pain, fears, longing or whatever, and then try to rise above it. Stress affects our bodies more than we realize, and I know we don't want or need additional challenges for our reproductive systems!

Hang in there, sister! Trust it will happen.
Laura

mommawannabee · 07-07-2003, 06:06 AM

Hang in there honey pot! Keep smilin', apparently a happy face got our Tazzie preggers!

MaryAnn1970 · 07-07-2003, 05:48 PM

Thanks pals for your support

Went to the RE this morning. NO FOLLIES!!!!!! On CD 8, my fertility monitor had 2 bars right away! I am CD 12 today. I have A TON of egg white. ABOUT 2 EGGS WORTH!!! I thought for sure i was about to O. My RE did a E2 and P4 today and progesterone and estrogen is up, HE SAID I ALREADY O'D AND MY MONITOR DIDN'T PICK IT UP!!! ***!!! The only day for sexin was on Saturday, DH delivered a FRIGGIN TRUCK LOAD OF SPERMS TOO, AND I GOT UP RIGHT AWAY!!!! LIKE I TOLD MARE, TOOK ME 2 DAYS TO DRAIN

Oh well...... Maybe i'll do one last clomid cycle next month with earlier ultrasounds. SHAT SHAT SHAT SHAT!!!!