Ashley, it's Thursday... - Infertility Message Board

Sarka · 07-10-2003, 01:02 AM

Hi Ashley, I was just wondering how you're doing and well if you have any good news to report. Let me know, thanks Sarka

ashley · 07-10-2003, 04:13 PM

Hey Sarka! Thanks for thinkin of me! Well the only news I have to report is CRAMPS CRAMPS CRAMPS. We all know what that means (AF on her way, hate her!!!)- can't bring myself to test at home b/c I just can not take the disappointment right now. I skipped my pg test at DR's office today b/c I don't need a test to tell me what I already know. I cried myself to sleep last night. Life is so unfair, isn't it? I was so hoping this was my month. Guess not. How are you doing?

Sarka · 07-10-2003, 11:49 PM

That is so unfair... when it happened to me I was thinking that the awful two weeks we went through...and NOTHING was happening inside all along. I even got my AF a day earlier. But cramps don't necessary mean it's Af, does it? Sometimes I wonder how many 2ww I can handle. I didn't cry - I was just angry. If a healthy couple have 25% chance and so we have about 15%...which is not a lot so tha's why I think it might not happen after first try. Let's carry on Ashley and hope that the next cycle will be it! I picked up Clomid(50) and will be taking last tablet tomorrow. I hope I will have eggs on the left otherwise it was all waisted. What's more the IUI would be around 21.7 and my DH has to travel to Vietnam - well I'm just not letting him to go without leaving something behind!!!! Let me know if you definitely have AF now,ok? U take care

ashley · 07-11-2003, 03:05 PM

Thanks Sarka - well, AF showed up at about 1:00pm today, right on schedule and I was at work so I had to hold it together until I got in the car to leave. I cried the whole way home and I'm crying as I write this to you. I do not have the energy to put into words how awful I feel right now. I am going to drink a few beers and just go to bed. I hope you have tons of follies from that Clomid - I will not do Clomid/IUI this month b/c we will be on vacation during "the crucial time." I have my fingers crossed for you, though. Keep me posted!!! Ashley

Sarka · 07-11-2003, 08:20 PM

Oh Ashely! Do you know that you brought tears to my eyes? I could really feel what you were feeling... I too had to once hold on till I was alone to cry my eyes out. That was in my 'trying days' I was five days late and thought that was it...and I got my AF the day I was told my younger sister was pregnat... do you know I was sooo upset... I love my sister and we great relantioship, but it wasn't a good day to receive that news. We had visitors and they were saying oh 'great news' and I just had to wait till I was alone with DH in bed and cried and cried. I was fine next day... I'm so happy for her now and can't wait once the baby is born. I think it's a good idea to do stuff in your 2ww... anything. You will feel much better in couple of days, you have a lovely holiday with your DH and if you want to you can try again once you are back & rested... Please stay positive and believe that it will happen!!! We just have to try more times... we have to get there and I'm sure we will! Have a nice holiday and enjoy it! Sarka