JLJ

laura, sarka and amber - you girls are the best - thank you so much for thinking of me... my appt went ok. re seems to think that this cycle was a fluke. he wants to try it again and that is really the only way we will learn more. he told me countless stories of women my age that this has happened to, and they did it 4 and 5 times and finally on the 4th or 5th cycle they got a "good batch." i assured the re that we cannot do that financially or emotionally. he understood. he was truly shocked to learn of last fridays events, but he seemed positive about everything. he wants to do zift and icsi combined next time, to assure that male factor has nothing to do with it even though dh tested fine. re is 99% sure that it was the egg quality, but wants to not take that chance. i will be on a completely different protocol this time - instead of doing lupron for a month, with heparin and pergonal at the end, i would do bcp and lupron at the end, along with pergonal human growth hormone and heparin. so..... there is a lot yet to figure out. i want to do this now, but dh wants to pay this off first. what do you guys think? it is 10,000 - no coverage - any thoughts? i feel like i am going to go crazy wondering if this is the way my eggs are or if it was just a bad cycle.
anyway, girls, thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and your post made my day - i am so blessed. i will continue to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers as well. keep me posted and i will be checking in on you all - love, ken