Need a hug - Inner Ear Disorders Message Board

Wowwwweeee · 04-13-2007, 10:15 AM

Just jumping in. I hope all is well with the board.

I am still dealing with headaches and wooziness (imbalance issues that leave me walking like Frankenstein, veering to the right, and panicked a lot).

This past few weeks have been awful in terms of my head symptoms, which lately have been preventing me from doing too much either from not feeling like myself or limiting me from an anxiety standpoint.

I have been interviewing a lot more recently, and the interview process is difficult because I am constantly worried about my head symptoms, which have escalated and changed recently.

I am sure a lot of this has to do with stress: no job (yet), boyfriend issues, and my head feeling so awful lately.

When I get this down or anxiety ridden, I worry that my doctor's have missed something, and then I begin to worry about my health or passing out, or, or, or.

I finally tried some Meclizine this morning, which is supposed to help alleviate the dizziness/wooziness. It only took me three years to try it, LOL. According to the pharamacist, it's got a good shelf-life, so the prescription was still good. I only took 1/3 of a pill, but at least it's something.

Believe it or not, I also asked my doctor for a prescription for Xanax, because my anxiety has been SO SO high lately. I have not yet taken it.

I am so pill phobic.

I also made an appointment for some vestibular rehab, and I will try that out next week. I am very nervous about that, especially in light of extreme panic of having my head moved and the fact that I still have to keep interviewing for jobs.

Lately, out of how my head feels, I am more relaxed to stay home - but I know life passes me by if I do this, and it depresses me TO do this.

I am so incredibly down, and although I know that stress plays a very large part in how my head symptoms fluctuate, I am not sure if I am depressed more about that and all it's limitations, or my other stressors in general. I have been easy to tears lately, and that for me is a sign that my anxieties are high.

Thanks for allowing me to rant a little. I just don't know what to do with myself right now.

dizzyandsad · 04-13-2007, 10:49 AM

I so know how you feel although I have not suffered as long as you have.In normal life I am a stressed out person so feeling dizzy totally sends me into a blind panic which makes me more dizzy and completes the viscious circle. They had me on Meclizine the second week and took it for four just stopped as I learned I have not given my body anytime to compensate. But meclizine is a godsend it did help me ALOT. Now I am off of it and feel like crap!! But hopefully I try to think of even "spin" as another recircuit closer to healing!!! I am pill phobic as well my GP gave me Lexapro for anxiety and one pill gave me hot flashes dizziness nausea and I was like hell no not taking this anymore (may be the antidepressant in it had similar reaction after my son was born and i tried paxil) hoping there may be something out there with little sideeffects. But I hear you the anxiety can be almost as bad as the dizziness. Sorry things are rough I certainly hope things improve for you and there is hope for the rest of us lol!!

charlotte67 · 04-13-2007, 11:43 AM

Wow...I can totally understand. You have to get out to compensate...but the fact it makes you so sick...your anxiety kicks in. Please be good to yourself. I think starting vrts are the way to go. Just remember they make you feel like crap before sending you in the positive direction.

You are a strong person...I totally understand why you need a hug...

Here goes ((((Hug)))).

gloria2936 · 04-13-2007, 12:03 PM

Wowwwweeee,

I can't say I understand how you feel as I haven't been in your shoes as long as you, but I do know how terrible these symptoms can be. I find that at my worst times, stressing over getting out to try and live or worrying about what I am missing out on or what I need to get done only puts more strain on myself. Relaxing about all of it makes the physical symptoms much easier to deal with.

My husband always tells me, that things always work out in the end. He has our whole marriage (celebrating 15 years this year) and in the end, they always do. A job will come to you, only when you relax and are patient.

Try and do something nice for yourself today, weather it be indulging in something you like to eat (don't worry about the calories, but stay away from migraine triggers) and play some nice music. No one is ever sad listening to great music. It will boost your adreniline and you will automatically feel better. I mentioned this before, but that video firechick recommended "The Secret" was such a mood booster. I really recommend it. Maybe rent it tonight and just relax. It is the weekend so there are no job interviews to go to. Put them on the shelf for the weekend. Don't stress over going out and living like others. We are not like others and stressing yourself about it will only make you feel worse. Do only what makes you feel good.

I hope you see some sunshine in your life today......big hugs to you.

Gloria

wannarun · 04-13-2007, 12:22 PM

Woweee,
I have felt similar this week. I put a little rant up on the board myself, but I have too much to say and when I write it, I never get the point across-I'm not very good with words!
I too wonder what the heck the docs are missing and what if, what if, what if.
I also watch tv or just look at people and think "aren't they lucky, they don't feel like they're going to fall over or pass out etc" That's when I know I'm really feeling sorry for myself!! LOL
I hope you can find some relief soon. I also have been given Xanax, but I told my doc that I wasn't going to take it and it'll sit in my drawer. He told me that's fine, but he wanted to save me a trip to the ER when I think it's something far worse than it is.
I have been really thinking lately that I have MAV, and figure that I would love to be diagnosed and have some sort of meds to help-then I remember how pill-a-phobic I am, and would I really take it? I think at this point I would try it, I'm getting desperate.
Glad you're going to try the VRT's. I don't do them and I cannot seem to find a pt in the area that knows anything about them! Let us know how you do with them.
I wish you the best and here's my hug too (((hug)))