Hi
......"why am I like this????".........
Not unusual with inner ear problem---it is explained here:
SENSORY CONFLICT AND OTHER CAUSES OF DIZZINESS: ETIOLOGY, DIFFERENTIAL DIAGNOSIS, AND MANAGEMENT
[url="http://www.opt.pacificu.edu/ce/catalog/COPE7282/Dizzy.html"]http://www.opt.pacificu.edu/ce/catalog/COPE7282/Dizzy.html[/url]
...."I am just distressed at not being able to do the simple things like I did before".....
you're constantly fighting the mismatch from your visual input and your disordered balance system that a very basic mechanism -- a mechanism that was developed as you learned to sit and crawl and that influenced how you later manipulated objects and then walked and spoke and thought, a mechanism that's taken for granted and built into very fundamental habits -- something that fundamental is being distorted That the vestibular and visual disturbance interferes with nuclei functioning within the brain stem and thus interferes with your sequencing of information and impairs and reduces your channeling capacity...the reason you have this problem as a vestibular patient is that your brain stem is affected. The brain stem is a stalk connected to the spinal cord. There are nuclei located in the brain stem that attach to your balance system; they are also highly important for keeping your cortex, your thinking areas, alert and aroused and attentive.
You can go here to read about that:
[url="http://www.nemsn.org/Articles/cognitive.htm"]http://www.nemsn.org/Articles/cognitive.htm[/url]