wideawakeinaz

hi!

my surgery is this wednesday, jan. 7th at 3:45pm. i wish it would have been a morning surgery, really don't want to spend most of the day dwelling on it. my boyfriend and i will sleep in....i'm planning to stay up as late as i can tuesday night and then try to sleep in till at least 10am...give me time to take a shower and just maybe watch a movie. i have to be there at 2pm.

i had my pre-op today...turns out i'm having more done than i thought, but nothing overly major. i'm having the cyst scope done to find the stone, then x-rays, then laser, and the urethroscopy, and the stent. the stent isn't as scary as i thought....and my doctor only wants it in for a couple of days, so that is good. i just hope to get an appointment to get it removed.

i'm taking off from work from tuesday to tuesday, but depending on the stent pain, i might go back sooner than that if the stent isn't removed. i really dont' like the idea of using most of my sick days from work right now in the first month. so, if i can, i'll try to go back to work by monday, even if it's just a few hours, my boss understands what's going on.

i had thought i passed the stone last week though. i'm not straining, was never given a strainer, so i urinate into a plastic bowl and try to look into it. i saw something in there, but apparently, it was nothing. i still have a dull sensation. i notice, when i do urinate and it's not a full bladder, i tend to feel a little sore, but when the bladder is full, i'm fine. weird.

my doctor has reserved the room for 90 minutes and from what the nurse today at the pre-op said, it should take the full 90 minutes and then about an hour of to wake up.

i just can't see it taking 90 minutes, especially since this is such a routine surgery. that's like saying, it'll take 30 minutes to find the stone and x-ray it, 30 minutes to laser it and remove and 30 minutes to put the stent in....of course, i'm not a doctor, but still, from what i understand, it just doesn't seem this could take 90 minutes.

i am being put to sleep though....i'm still nervous, but i'm working on that. my boyfriend said, considering i'm not allegric to anything, then that is good and that being put to sleep won't be a big deal. he keeps telling me over and over, that his mom did this a few times, his grandparents did, friends of ours, but still....i've never been to the hospital other than when both my parents died. i know that is why i'm so nervous....after losing both my parents....19 when mom died, 28 when dad died last year.....i know that makes me a little more nervous, but i guess all i can say is, whatever happens, happens. i'm putting my faith in God and i keep praying....so that is all i can do.

i read your posts about thinking of not doing the surgery....believe me, i can relate.....i told my boyfriend tonight, if i still feel scaried, i really want to cancel it. i would probably try to do it again in febuary...at least wait till after my 30th birthday at the end of the month....but i can relate. why are you nervous? you nervous about being to sleep or about the surgery itself? i hope all goes well for you. think of it like this....life in general is never as bad as we think.

if you want to talk....you can....cause i understand how you feel....so, i just hope all goes well for you as well. and once your surgery is done, make sure you tell me how it went and i'll tell you how mine went too.

Charlene (a whimpy female who is starting to calm down, but still whimpy!)