I think that if you are keeping in touch with your doctor's office, making appointments & following through with the results you may be better off NOT reading about kidney problems. For example, there is a kidney healthboard, but I'm wondering if you chose the relationship board because you are looking for reassurance?
Everyone is different! When my dad was sick my brother & sisters were like you. And there I was, looking up every single possibililty.
We were both right - they were the type that dealt with everything as it came up.
I had the big picture and was more ready for whatever happened.
Hang in there and I know this sounds stupid, but stay busy and help someone else. It will keep your mind off of yourself more right now.
Let us know how it turns out, ok????