sharp3951

I haven't posted in a while. I do have good news though. From my previous post i had posted that we found out that my hubby only has one kidney. We found this out because we have been trying to have another baby since January. I was having a hard time getting pregnant and my husband had his sperm checked and we found out he had low sperm count. When he went to a urologist we found out that he only had one vas deferens which is the tube in the testicle that carries the sperm out. So I guess thats why he has low sperm count. The doc said that having one vas deferens usually means one kidney. So my hubby had his kidneys checked and he is missing his left kidney. I cried for days. This was back in October. I felt like i was grieving all over again a year later. I am still crying as i post this. I started worrying about my 7 year old son wondering if he only had one kidney or kidney problems. I was so scared. He plays soccer and I didn't want to have to tell him he couldn't play anymore. So I took him for his 7 year old check up and i told his doctor i wanted him to have an ultrasound done of his kidneys. The good news is that my 7 year old has both his kidneys. They said everything looked perfect even his bladder. I was so happy. I had prayed to God over and over again that he would be ok and have both kidneys. I said that I didn't care if i had anymore children, I just wanted my 7 year old son to be ok. And now he is. Thank God! I felt so relieved because i felt like even though my husband has one kidney and even though my 2nd son died with no kidneys it gave me hope that my husband and i could have another healthy baby just like our first son. The problem is that he has low sperm count and we have been trying for 11 months and i can't get pregnant. I have made an appointment with a fertility specialist next Tuesday which is an hour and a half away. Its so hard trying to get off work if i have to keep going back and forth. Please pray for me. I not only had a baby die, i might not be able to get pregnant again. It is so hard trying month after month. The weird thing is that i got pregnant with my first son without even trying. We had one slip up and what a wonderful slip up that was. Of course my hubby was 24 at the time and now he is 32. It took me around 6 montths to get pregnant with my potter baby. My hubby has stopped driving a truck for the time being hoping that will help his sperm but it hasn't yet. I really need yalls prayers this is really killing me inside. I am very thankful that my first son is ok but deep down inside i want another baby so bad.