bananarama

Hey guys! So, I am still in a ton of back pain. It caused me to go over the edge last Sunday and decide that I dind't want to live anymore, but thankfully i realized that that wasn't a healthy thought, and I called my health coach, who called the police. I went to a crisis center by cop car, and then taken to the hospital by ambulance (for the pain, but all they did in ER was give me a motrin, and then Baker-acted me (put me in the psych ward invluntarily)). I just got out on Saturday. My psyhciatrist told me that I wasn't getting out until after I told her that my pain was all in my head, and that I was using it to manipulate people. She wouldn't listen to a word I said, and Baker-acted me a second time on Tuesday (each one lasts for 72 hours). I did finally become voluntary before I left, so I could get out of the green socks that meant I was a flight risk (yeah, being an hours drive away from my car, and an hour and a hlaf away from where I live, and with no clothes, sure I was going to run away). I got poked tiwce a day to check some kind of stuff, although I never did get any results. I got an MRI the day I left. Also did a 24 hour urine, as a nephrologist did come in to see me. I have a 4 and a 5 mm stone (one in each kidney), and several smaller ones. They aren't going to do anything for them. So, to say the least, I have had quite an interesting last week. I never want to get stuck in the hospital again!! Ahhh!! Not fun at all. Icky. Not for me at all. I don't recommend it, for your sanity's sake. I hated my psychiatrist. I lied my way out of that place. I am doing better now, but still have my really low days. I am now on three different meds for the bipolar. Seraquel, Lexapro, and Lamictal. Hopefully this will work to help keep me from thinking that poorly again.