Re: Maybe I'm Not Really Stupid?
it is so rare to have found your story. i too was born premature with only a 50% chance of living (weighed 3lbs) and had many of the same childhood difficulties (some of which continue today). i also dealt with similar childhood trauma and being teased about being too little and i remember the names they called me. then of course the way i was made to feel as though i were mentally retarded by my teachers who did not understand why my motorskills were so poor or why i wasnt learning the way the other children were. i remember i was the target of agression for my older sisters because they would be stuck doing all the chores and everything else that needed tending but i wasnt allowed to do them because i was either too small and just didnt have the necessary control, like over the the vacuum or i would break something, especially if ever i put the dishes away. i still have trouble in school but i managed to get by, i just graduated highschool. i was prescribed medication for my ADD as well. for a long time i was in remedial classes throughout my whole student career, that is up until i turned 18 and refused it my senior year. to be honest, i wish i had gotten the extra help but at least i did well prior to that year and have gotten accepted to my first choice college.
anyway, what i want to get across is that i can definitely relate.
i believe you should get tested for an LD (granted you are able and have sufficient funds).i was held back in 2nd grade and thats when i was tested. i did, and if i handnt, i too would have gone on believing i was stupid rather than knowing there is something more to it and there is a reason i am the way i am. in addition, depending on the disorder, their are ways you can find to cope with them and/or compensate. if you are tested and you discover that you do have an LD,then at least you can be more conscious of it and it may help you to identify your prolblem areas and maybe a different method of approaching them.
not to sound too fourth right or rude, but you could have gotten off a lot worse. not only is it amazing that you lived through your ordeal, but you really have overcome a lot. i think your strong for the battle you have endured and for continuing to live your life.