i don't even know what kind of help to get. i have had these problems for so long. i can't deal with it anymore.
please let me know if you recognize these and, if so, what to do next.
-Cannot follow through with ideas/plans
:I have many many lists of goals and what I would like to include in my life. It is the same as the list from college and I still have not achieved anything on it. Even in my journal you can see this pattern. ďI am going to do what I need to doĒ ďwhy didnít you do what you said?Ē and repeat.
-Overwhelmed by lots of information
:tend to shut down, but need ability for future projects. Longer process because have to look up song on internet to make sure it is what I wanted. But, it was what I wanted when I first wrote it down. (usually write lyric and look up that way)
-Feel detached from world
:not know song titles, social interaction, basic living skills. I know I like almonds because I see/hear about them almost daily. I should freaking know I like brazil nuts, but am only reminded when there is one around. Cannot think of this myself.
-Do not absorb details
nce again, poor memory. I would like to be able to retain the things I read, hear, speak (yes, donít even remember things I think or talk about). I know general ideas, not facts to support them.
When people speak itís as if they are not speaking
:sometimes when someone is talking directly to me it becomes jibberish or nothing at all. I lose focus and brain shuts down.
-What I think is not always what I say or write
:I can see an object, yet still not say the right thing. When writing, ideas not so cohesive. (this is because thatís all I think of). I can think through a thought one time, but cannot repeat it in the same way ever again.
-Hard to make decision s
:always buy something, take it home to see if I like it. Cannot decide this in stores. As if I donít know my own tastes. Canít see it as final product. Canít see how fit in my environment. As well as other decisions.
-Feels like there is a cloud over my brain
:I swear this is physical. Head not clear. Like fog.
-Poor short-term memory
:when turn around / arrive at desination I have to pause because I already forgot what I was doing. Told to give kitty his pill. 15 mins later, mom asks but I forgot. Forget memorizing names, books, songs, shows anything!
:cannot stand to wait for someone; feel like moving around.
-Say the wrong thing or omit.
:usually spend rest of the day replaying what I didnít say or what I said wrong in my head. I have even rehearsed what I wanted to say in my head and then donít even say it right.
-General ďchecking outĒ feeling
-Canít find the right word.
:end up using descriptions