I just wanted to drop you a line of support. I too am 50, but I was diagnosed in 1991. I went through many years of watching and waiting. Then in 2003 I needed treatment. So, while I am not in a totally similar situation I can relate. Hang in there, be kind to yourself (rest, good nutrition, moderate exercise) and read just enough about CLL to be informed, but not enough to totally flip you out! I hope this helps you not feel so lonely.