today i had my first taste of a 'bad doctor' since being dx SLE for lack of a better way to say it
been going thru all kinds of hell for the past 4-6weeks ... had to consider changing docs (finances) but in the end went back to my dx doc of 6 years, also i thought he was really good ... boy was i wrong
i made the fatal error in December of telling him that i smoke pot to get me thru the days and i think makes the depression more manageable. Today i was told that ALL my symptoms are from the pot
how can a degenerative disease pains be b/c of this? (picked up pre-pot) He told me that my lupus was not acting up (physical exam only) but i am wasting away (yes, i have lost 10kg) but i have had gastro since 9/4
he simply brushed away my symptoms told me i am depressed & constipated & must go to rehab & prescribed : cymbalta & multi-vitamin
when i asked if we could treat the other symptoms ie. hormone issues, eating disorder/nausea, allergies then we treat the depression last as i know that once i get the other things 'under control' it will be far milder ... NO ??? also told me not to worry about quitting cigarettes but MUST stop the pot ???
I AM SORRY BUT ANTI-DEPRESSANTS & VITAMINS IS NOT THE ONLY THING I NEED.
so now i will stop the pot & find a new doctor ... i will stay off the green & then start the whole process from the start again ... get the doc, do the tests, try the meds & have another breakdown, then discuss a green treatment plan ... i will even offer to be the trial subject ... look if it is 'hurting' me then it must go but how can he be so flippant with me
thanks for letting me get this out ...
