Well....first I'm sorry I've not been on in so long! For those who've seen me in the past? I know you'll understand EXACTLY what I mean when I say I overdid(thinking of course I was doing SOOOOOOOO WELL) and w/o going into all the details(hehe...ya got lucky today!
...) I ended up in bed for lil over 2 and 1/2 weeks w/a fever between 100-102. Funny thing about it all? I called my LLMD and was quickly told I was overdoing and setting myself up for a relapse and to STOP IT!(in a nice way of course) .....but in the back of my mind I was thinking..."yeah right...so that's your opinion but I KNOW I just have a little bug that's gonna go away soon....you just wait and see!"..... Well, then once I finally was actually ABLE to get out of bed I went to see a local doc who happened to not know my history. I thought it was kinda neat they didn't have all the "stuff" to fill out .....like past surgeries, illnesses..blahblahblah.......takes me FOREVER and never can remember all the dates, etc. I just had to check mark symptoms basically. I get in the room and she asked me about this and that symptom then just sat frozen for a sec. I looked and said "WHAT?" .....she asked if I'd been outdoors lately. Uhhh....nope..been in the bed over 2 weeks now! She said "no..before..like a camping trip or something?"........i just looked at her. She said "You'd be surprised at all the tickborne illnesses I've seen this year....we need to run a full panel on you." I just died laffin then! Too weak to laugh much but you know what I mean.........Then I gave her the quick lowdown. She told me the same. STOP IT! You're setting yourself up for a relapse! ...I am glad she knew about it and all but it really wasn't what I wanted to hear
. I've pretty much just been doing the "chill/relax thing" since then.....as I promised my parents even that's what I would do. Not that I honestly feel a choice. Oh well. Lesson learned.....had better be this time anyway! Hopefully my tellin this will stop someone else too. .....setbacks big or small are NOT fun!ugggggh!
Ok...now what I'm wondering.....I would REALLY love feedback on this too!!!!!
Does anyone else out there have others make comments about you "rambling"...getting off track while you're talking or going subject to subject? ....Not that I don't know I do but sheez....I get so tired of people actually commenting on it! Makes it really hard to w/new people in life. I mean my family and friends who've been there forever all don't seem to think anything about it or we just laugh it off or they'll get me back on track but new people just look at me and say something....that's usually hurtful too. I'm just wondering....Is it just me who does this or anyone else out there?? I know the right side of my brain had gotten really swollen and there was "homogenous O2 loss" all over my brain but I've really thought all that was better........if not gone. Well......ok, I'd say just TONS better. I'm so tired of people saying things and not that I care what people say or think so much but it truly is a hindrance at times. Yes.....my attitude is that if they don't want to take the time to focus on the good things about me and try to understand then too bad for them but at the same time I do hate it. ....and yes, I'm MUCH worse when I'm tired or get too much going. Anyone else??? ...and yeah...i take my adderall daily and sometimes seems to help and other times not. ....ok, before I start to ramble now!aaaack!lol!.....any feedback???
.....hope everybody's doing well too! I gotta read through the posts and catch up!!!