Scared of results. Need to vent. - Lymphomas Message Board

mesueminna · 08-05-2003, 11:17 PM

Well tomorrow is my post-op appointment. I should get my results back and my stiches out. I am afraid of the results. I just cant read the signs my body is giving me. For one thing I have never had cancer before so I dont know what it feels like. And if the biopsy was positive then I have a whole lot of worry about. I am afraid that with me not having a immune system my body wont be able to fight even the most curable kind. Just frightening to me. Plus this past 3 years have been hell on our family. My husbands dad was diagnoised with prostate cancer and a month later his mom with breast cancer. And his aunt with breast cancer 4 months after that. Then on my side my aunt died from cervical cancer that spread through out her body and my other aunt died from breast cancer a year after that. Even our dog died from cancer 2 years ago. All within the past 4 years. So I just dont want to be added to the list. Even worse they would not let my husband out of work so I have to find this out on my own. I just want to cry.
Melinda

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"Every experience God gives us, every person he puts in our lives, is the perfect preparation for the future only he can see."

natureguy · 08-05-2003, 11:39 PM

Melinda, I wanted to say that I understand what you've went through. I have lost many friends and family to cancer. So feel free to express your pain. I don't know if this is something you might be interested in or not. Essiac Tea has been used in Canada for many years for helping those with cancer. It was first intraduced by a nurse named Caisse. She states that it is supposed to reduce the side affects on the treatments. It was also supposed to help the Immune system become stronger. You can always check with a pharmicist and he/she can provide you with any answers you might have. I hope that you make a full and speedy recovery. I will keep you in my prayers.

***With Love And Light***

mesueminna · 08-06-2003, 12:00 AM

Thank you for the information. I have not got the results yet. I will first thing in the morning. However as much as I would like to take something to boost my immune system I cant. I take medications to supress it. I have to or I will reject my liver and kidney. I am a dual transplant paitent. So we work real hard on supressing it. And it is another reason I am prone to cancer. My cells have no defence to stop them from multiplying and going hay wire.
So I am fighting a double edge sword bare handed. Seems petty to cry when I dont know for sure. But I cant seem to help it.
Thanks again,
Melinda

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"Every experience God gives us, every person he puts in our lives, is the perfect preparation for the future only he can see."

jandy3 · 08-06-2003, 03:31 PM

I just wanted to let you know that I will keep you and your family in my toughts and prayers.

I also wanted to send you lots and lots of good luck for tomarow.

Jenady

p.s. I know how you feel I was so scared and felt so alone, getting results back is such a scary thing, when I got mine back I cried because it was sucha relief. I am sure you are fine, also if you feel like want to talk feel free to email me.

Crying is good, release the stress.

god bless.