CC, hope you're well...(& a little about me.....) - Lymphomas Message Board

singer78 · 11-13-2007, 11:36 AM

Hi,
It seems people are a little quiet here the last few days--
Hope everyone is o.k., and I'm especially hoping CC is doing o.k.

I'm having "mental" issues, myself.... a bit of a depression has set in after treatment, but from what I hear, that's common. I'm trying a lighter dose of an antidepressant I was prescribed, a few month's back. Maybe by taking it in the afternoon and lessening the dose some, it will help. My chemo nurse suggested trying that, so "we'll see." I figure it can't hurt at this point.

I'm axiously awaiting for my Pet/Ct scan set-up in early December.
Like Linda said, "You won't be happy until you know you're well...."
She couldn't have said anything truer.
So, in the meantime, I just have to forge ahead...focus on the positive....
stay in faith....

I'd love to hear from you, CC...
If you're up to it & want some "company"....

love, S.

DebM412 · 11-13-2007, 11:52 AM

Hi Singer,

It is awfully quiet on the board and I too am concerned for CC. We never really did find out about the results just know that they wern't what was hoped for.

I'm sorry you are struggling with the depression. I hope that is gets better for you!

Take care of yourself!

Deb

singer78 · 11-13-2007, 12:03 PM

Hi Deb,
Good. I'm glad to hear from you. It HAS been especially quiet here, hasn't it?

Hopefully, CC will come back to the Board. She mentioned she was depressed, too.
I certainly can relate--and my prognosis has been 'good.'

I just got off the phone with my chemo nurse a little bit ago, and she was telling me that chemo (and radiation) can definitely throw your brain chemistry off...so, in a way, that was a relief. I already knew that (to a degree)...but, it's always more comforting to hear it from a professional that knows your history & has your chart right in front of them.

Hopefully, we'll hear some good news from CC.
XO

CancerChick · 11-13-2007, 01:05 PM

Of course I want company Singer.

I'm sorry I haven't been on but I'm just so depressed about the turn of events. I was hoping I'd be almost finished with this but no way. I have 42% bone marrow involvement and it's classed as stage 4. So now my onc said we have to be more aggressive in treating this. But there's only a 10-20% chance I'll be cured. So it's the pits.

I've had blood work and I'm ready to start RICE chemotherapy. But with this one I have to stay in the hospital a day or two because one of the drugs take 24 hrs. Then on days 7-14 I have to have injections of G-CSF and that completes one. My doc said he's trying 3 of these to see what happens. If this doesn't work it looks like a bone marrow transplant. I'm so scared of this and that's why I haven't said anything because Linda hasn't posted and I'm afraid of the worse. Linda if you're reading this please let Don know that he has a perfect stranger praying really hard for him.

Singer I'm so sorry about the depression. I'm guessing it's sort of anti-climatic isn't it? I was talking to a lady at the chemo center today who had a relapse of the DLBC lymphoma like I have. She said that when it was all over she didn't know whether to laugh or cry. She just didn't know what to do. Everyday was consumed with the "c" and now all of a sudden, nothing. But of course she moved on and it's only been 3 months and she's back again. When she told me this I busted out crying. I don't even know her but I couldn't stop. The chemo nurse came to my rescue, again, and took me aside and said "Kayla, you'll be okay".

You'll get through this Singer. Gosh look how far you've come. I'm sure you're just anxious about the PET/CT scan and until you get the all clear, it will be on your mind. Just hang in there and keep reading those inspirational stories.

Hi Deb. Nice to see you here. How's things going for you? And Alison if you're still here, I hope all is well with you and your DH.

It's been a long day and my head is splitting from crying. I went to my mom's grave and had another one of our chats. I need her now more than ever but she's gone and I have to fight this alone.

Hugs,

DebM412 · 11-13-2007, 02:43 PM

CC,

My dear, I am so sorry. This has been so rough on you and now this. You seem so calm. Prior to any chemo what was the bone marrow involcement percentage?

I will pray so very hard for you. I wish I could give you a big fat hug right now!

Deb