Proud of CC !! - Lymphomas Message Board

singer78 · 11-24-2007, 01:48 PM

Hi CC,
My goodness, you are quite amazing.
You have to give yourself shots & are doing it!
Good for you! "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going,"---
And that's you!
My niece had to learn to give herself vitamin B12 shots...it took some 'doing,' but she learned. You go, girl!
God bless you, for having the wonderful attitude you do.
You're truly an inspiration for me & many other people on here, too.

I can only imagine how you must be feeling. You said this is 10 X's harder than chemo before. Are you eating? I feel bad you didn't get to have your turkey & dressing...but, there's always room for that later when you're feeling better. I have "Thanksgiving dinner" year-round, myself. It doesn't necessarily have to be a holiday.
I have a "new-found" attitude, as of yesterday & today.
I guess I just got tired of my moping...plus I needed the proper med's. I never really understood "depression," but now I think I do. It's never hopeless....never....ever. Everything changes...this is only temporary.

Linda, I feel so sad when I think of what you're going through.
Remember, we're here, whenever you feel like talking.

I actually put up a small led-light Xmas tree a little while ago.
In the summertime, I had red lights on it, and called it my "chemo tree."
I took it down, when I was done with chemo. I dragged it back out a few hours ago---
Now, it's got blue lights...and it's my bona fide Xmas tree. It's small, but it represents "hope" for me....a new season coming....for all of us.

God bless you, CC.
Please stay in touch. I check back here often, as this is my best source of inspiration.
love you,
S.

marnb77 · 11-24-2007, 02:15 PM

Hi Singer,
I am doing ok today. I wish I was better but I'm not. I am obsessing over this growth I have on my left breast. I know the dr says it was benign, but I just want it to go away. Everytime I look at it, I get more nervous.
My main problem is obsessing. I can literally sit all day and think about something over & over & over. I am working hard to try and stop this, but it's hard.
Sometimes I think anxiety & depression is a full time job.
I wish I did take things in stride, but I don't. I can offer great advice to someone else, but can't follow it myself.
Another thing I am working on.
Sounds like you are doing great! Maybe this med combo is the right one for you! It's crazy how one little pill can change so much.
Please try not to obsess about your scans. I know, easier said than done, but in the end, it won't change the outcome.
You are going to be ok, i know it.

CC- Like Singer said, I am proud of you too. Giving yourself shots is pretty amazing. My little sister had to give herself growth hormone shots everynight before bed time, and I was always amazed at her.
You have the most amazing attitude. Please try and remain positive, that's half the battle. Before you know it, this will only be a distant memory...

Linda- Thinking of you.. I hope you are ok. Sending many hugs your way..

xxx

LINDA505 · 11-24-2007, 05:23 PM

Hello friends,
I am here and doing ok. It is a wk today that Don went to heaven. I keep my busy so I do not have time to obsess over it. I am sad but at peace. I will miss him but know that his time had come and his suffering is over.

Thank you all for your kindness and in thinking of me and my family.

Singer, I am glad that the new meds are kicking in. That is wonderful. Glad
that you went out and had a nice dinner. Did your family not want to do anything? Too bad. My Dad had a nice day with Don's family/. They had everything and they all enjoyed being together and celebrating Don's life.

CC: so glad that you posted ...I have been thinking of you and hoping that you are making it ok. My sister in law is going to write something and wants me to send it to you all. Good for you that you are giving yourself injections.
It is hard to do that. I never have any problems sticking someone else but
would not like to do it to myself. Stay strong. I would call the nurse if your breathing does not get better. Honey do not wait until it is worse. They can give you something to make it easier to breathe. It could be some of the meds doing it. Hang in there.....you are always in my thoughts.

Marnb, You sound alot like me. I am always ruminating over something but am trying not to do that. I am not that familar with that dx for your breast
problem. If you are still concerned I would talk with a breast surgeon. It sounds more dermatological but I still not sure what it is. But it is a benign
condition so that is good. Can you not ask the derm what it is? Hope you had a nice turkey day.

Well I have been busy with Thanksgiving dinner day. I stood on my feet for many hours and was totally exhausted. The next day my daughter and I went Christmas shopping and fought the crowds. Not one store had Xmas music on and it was disappointing. We had fun anyway. I got alot of stuff for my Dad and hubby and son in law.

My Dad is coming here for Christmas for 3 wks. I am so happy and I think he is too. He said he needs to be with us and I need him too. I have not had
Xmas with him for 5 Christmas's. We always had Xmas at my house with everyone there and I really miss it so much. I am going to make this the best
Christmas for him. It will be easier here for him than to be in Fla.

Today I started my decorations and got the tree up and the living room all decorated. We have a 118 yr old Queen Anne Victorian home so I did a very
old fashioned decor. I am putting a smaller tree upstairs in the other den so my Dad has a tree when he wants to watch TV. I am looking forward to being with him and making a warm holiday for him to remember.

Hubby is going to put the lights up outside tomorrow. It was in the 60's here on thur. and by evening it went down in the 30's. Today was in the 20's and 30's. Burr. All I want is a White Christmas and for all of you to have the
good news you so deserve.

Well I am running out the things to say other than have a good week and thank you for thinking of me. When all is quiet at night that is when the tears come.

Love to all
Linda

singer78 · 11-25-2007, 11:31 AM

Hi Linda,
You sound good....yes, it's good to stay busy.
I've been finding that out lately. My med's are helping, but I still have to give myself that little "kick" to get going. I can "veg-out" real easy, if I allow myself.
Today, I'm determined to get the laundry caught-up and try to clean the attic.

Your house sounds lovely. I think the older homes have such charm. I have a smaller house, but everyone always comments on how much space there is, once inside. Since I was on the road for so long, I let a lot of things go---I'm trying to catch up, now...but, it's going to take some time. I'm still not up-to-par.

Right before I was dx, I had trouble with my arms falling asleep. I think it was because of my growing lymph node...now, I'm having trouble again, but I think it's caused by my treatment (at least I'm praying). I think it's "neuropathy." I'd search it on the internet, but everytime I do, I regret it. I think I'll call my chemo nurses tomorrow to see it there's anything I can to alleviate it. I wake up every half hour or so, and have to rearrange myself, because something has fallen asleep---usually my arms. I'm trying not to obsess....of course, I'm worrying there's another lymph node swelling somewhere.
When does this all subside? Weeks? Months?
In the meantime, I'm pushing on....thank God I've found something to take, that's working somewhat to ease my nerves.

I'm glad you dad is coming to stay with you over Xmas. That will be nice to have him with your family.

Marn, I "feel" for you. It's always the "not knowing" that drives you nutso.
That's why I'm trying to stay busy. I can sink real deep, if I allow myself. There's always a new symptom on the horizon.... I know it's hard, but staying busy....reading, cleaning, visiting, shopping,...whatever, anything... helps.

CC...hope you're doing better today.
When you can, post and let us know how you're doing.
I'm glad you have someone helping you out. Is it a visiting nurse?
I hope you're on the mend today. I know how hard ABVD was, and I can only imagine how difficult this must be for you. You're always in my prayers....Linda, too...Marn, you also.

Well...off I go.
I've been sleeping a lot on these med's. I guess I need it. But, my days are starting later and later... That's o.k., though. We all need sleep. My chemo nurses have stressed that to me over & over.

Have a lovely Sunday. I'm so glad I have my friends here.

love, S.

CancerChick · 11-25-2007, 06:01 PM

Singer that was so sweet of you to start this for me.

I actually saw this last night and started to reply and all of a sudden this wave of nausea came over me and I had to leave. You never know when it's going to hit you. Today I'm just so drained and have been barely able to get off the sofa. I did call the chemo nurse about my breathing problems. She said it's probably from my RBCs being so low. But if it doesn't improve they'll give me something. Just what I need another pill to take.

I used to keep pills in the medicine cabinet, not any more. It takes half my kitchen counter.

I'm so glad that the pills are working for you Singer. I know you're anxious about the scans but I know it my heart that this will be all over for you. And what a story about the chemo tree. I never thought of that. I'm starting to get the holiday blues. I had tickets to go to NYC next Saturday with church and see the Christmas show, the ice skaters in Rockefeller Center and St. Patrick's Cathederal. I won't be making it though.

Linda I've been thinking of you constantly and I'm glad you posted too. It sounds like you have a lovely house. I'm so glad that your dad is coming to stay with you for Christmas. You need to lean on each other at this time.

Marn I know that you are probably worried. Isn't there someone else you can go to? Someone who will sit down and talk to you? I know how frustrating it is not knowing.

I'm doing okay with the shots, hit a bad spot today and had to do it over again.

But along with it comes the all over achiness.

Must hit the sofa again. I'm actually closing my eyes. I took something for pain and it's hitting me all of a sudden. I'm glad you all had a great Thanksgiving. That will be me next year, I promise

Hugs,
Kayla