I'm Off for Rice #2 - Lymphomas Message Board

CancerChick · 12-07-2007, 08:37 AM

I'm off for #2 shortly. Three grueling days of chemo with the same schedule I had last time. I'm starting to really hate this. I've had a few "good days" and was able to decorate my house a little for Christmas. I'm trying so hard to get in the spirit but it's hard. I can't seem to get out of my head that I can't beat this. My memories of my mom are so strong right now and I'd do anything to have her here with me.

Linda I can feel the sadness in your voice on the other thread. I wish I could give you a hug too and take away some of your sadness. I'm sure your Don was just as handsome as a youth as he was as an adult. Just remember Linda he is at peace now and with God. There's no greater joy in that and I can't wait for the day I'm with God and my mom.

Singer please don't fret over gall bladder problems. After what you've been through this is a piece of cake. But I know you, you'll worry and worry and that's no good for gall bladder problems.

I have to get going. I'll probably be in the hospital until Monday this time. And I have to give myself shots for a week again. But good news is, I guess, is that my one "good" week will be Christmas week. I'm going to try to enjoy it as much as I can. I even bought my cat his presents the other day.

Take care everyone and remember the reason for the season.

Luv and hugs,

Kayla

singer78 · 12-07-2007, 11:52 AM

Kayla,
Almost 4 days in the hospital?
Oh Dear....
I can only imagine how you're feeling.
The good news is, it won't last forever & one day, soon, you'll hear some good news, like me. Like Linda said, it's good having someone there (nurses) to help you through this chemo. It sounds very rough....but, remember, you're counting down......

My heart aches for you, every time you mention missing your mother.
To have lost her at such a young age, has to be devastating. No one can take the place of your mother....and you're so courageous to handle all of this, like you are.
You're quite amazing, young lady. I can only imagine, when you're well, what the future holds for you. You'll be literally unstoppable!

I'm sorry I'm getting the reputation of being the "worrier" here.
I guess I have a tendency to write everything out I'm feeling---then sometimes regret it. That's me---"stick your foot in your mouth" Singer.

Linda, yes, you've painted a wonderful uplifting picture of Don to us all.
I can only equate your feeling to how I felt, after losing my beloved sister, and I was so numb. We lost her in August, and the following holidays were very, very difficult. Your attitude of gratitude, for having our loved one's in our lives as long as we did, is so commendable. You're amazing, too. You're all my beloved teachers. All of you.

Kayla, hopefully by the time you read this, you will be home & have one more "down."
I'm glad your week off, is Xmas week.
How sweet you bought gifts for your kitty. I'm sure he'll (or she?) appreciate them.
We certainly spoil our pets. Mine live a "charmed life," too.

Please let us know when you return & how you're feeling.
love you.
XO

LINDA505 · 12-09-2007, 10:41 AM

Dear kayla, I found you here to late to post. I wish I knew where you lived and I would drive there to see you and hold your hand as your mom would if she were here. I can not stop thinking of how unfair life seems sometimes. To have a wonderful young women who loves her family so much and she loses them. Then we have others who have a family and they do not care or want them....life is strange like that. I still have to find a way to understand
what God's plan is. I hope that his plan for you is to find your good health again and to live a great life. I can not imagine that he doesn't want you to be whole and well again. You are so kind and caring and you feel others pain when you have your own burden to bear. You are selfless. I want only the best for you so I hope that when you are out of the hospital that you can find your strength and enjoy some of Christmas.

I am lucky to have a great family and I would love that you are a part of it even if it is on the internet.

Love,
LiNDA

HAPPY HOMECOMING...............KAYLA

CancerChick · 12-10-2007, 08:22 PM

Home sweet home again. Actually I got home around 5:30 but fell asleep on the sofa with my kitty sleeping right next to me. I'm utterly exhausted and not feeling the bes with nausea so I'll be back in the morning to read some posts.

My kitty missed me and oh how I missed him. And I've missed all my friends here too.

My own bed awaits and my kitty awaits so nite nite from me to you

singer78 · 12-10-2007, 09:51 PM

So wonderful to hear from you!

"There's no place like home." Didn't Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz say that?
I know....it's so true.

I'm glad you're home with your kitty, too.

Hopefully you're having sweet dreams right now & can post a little, when you're feeling better.

Welcome home, sweetie.
Singer