Either I am crazy, insane or just going through perimenoupause - Menopause Message Board

troubledchild · 06-24-2004, 05:52 PM

Hi all,

My body has been acting weird lately and I have been posting alot on other boards here trying to find an answer but everything just seems to be wrong that it is not that it could be something else.

I have been having night sweats just about every night, I haven't been getting alot of sleep, I wake up every night feeling like I can't get back to sleep.

My main concern right now is something that has been happening to me recently that I don't like. Once in a while over the past 6 months I have not been myself at all. I have always been this bouncy jumpy person that nothing bothered me at all I always just let things go over my head and I would just smile and I was always in a good mood, I am one of those people that other people hate because I am so cheerful. I am still cheerful but I have these days lately where everyone around me hate me now because I am so mean.

Like today for instance, we have this lady that works for us and she had nothing else to do and she told me that she would work with me and I told her NO, and she said that she would work with me to HELP me, which was very nice of her and I told her NO, I WORK BETTER BY MYSELF AND TO LEAVE ME ALONE. I am always so nice to people I don't like to hurt anyone's feelings.

Now tonight I have nothing to be sad, mad or to be angry about and the tears are just rolling down my cheek. I feel like I am on a roller coaster, one minute I am happy the next angry and the next crying like a little baby.

I know it is that time of the month for me too but this is bad, really bad, never been this bad before.

Please help me,

Grace

maddux417 · 06-24-2004, 06:12 PM

Well, I was never that nice to begin with but now, whoa, I say things that would have remained as a thought in my head. It's out of my mouth before I have a chance to sensor it. I'm not trying to use peri as an excuse, because I am an adult and have a responsibility to behave civily, but man, am I catty! And cry at the drop of a hat? I work with nothing but men and they don't even ask what's wrong (which is a good thing because all it would take would be for someone to show concern for me and I would probably end up in a sobbing puddle.) the guys just sign their tickets and get their assignments and get out of the office quick. I hear that this will pass and we will get stable after the hormonal storm passes. I know everyone around me is hanging onto to that hope. Luckily I live alone so there isn't anyone to abuse at home. LOL. M.C.

Hopefully · 06-24-2004, 06:37 PM

Grace, your experience sounds so typical of someone dealing with hormonal inbalance. I'm 43 years old going through perimenopause. I remember starting with the symptoms you mentioned. My ob/gyn kept telling me it was just PMDD, but I knew that it had to be more since my symptoms were occuring daily, not just a week before my period; and they were intensifying. If you haven't seen a doctor please see one that you trust. There is no need to suffer needlessly when help is available.

troubledchild · 06-24-2004, 07:03 PM

Thanks for both of your replies.

The scary thing is, is I am only 34 and kind of young to be going through all of this.

I wish I had some kind of tape to tape over my mouth when I get this way, because then I feel so bad at what I did, and I know I can't take it back. Today I think I apologized to this person 25 times before she told me to stop it that I sounded like an idiot, which I really did. But then we were fine the rest of the day.

I don't like myself for being this way, I wish there was something I can do so this doesn't happen again, but I know it is water under the bridge.

Thanks

Grace

ainfante · 06-24-2004, 07:52 PM

Troublechild, sounds like a PMS. I would discuss this hormonal inbalance with your gyne. Possibly birth control or anti-depressants may help you.

Andrea