I have been on this roller coaster since January and I can't stand it!!!!!!!!!! Period, as normal, right on time on December 2nd. Then nothing until January 27th. From then to February 3, spotting. February 3rd, floodgates, but only for a day, then slow, then back to a mini flood for a few hours a few days in, then back to spotting until February 20th (as I was walking off a plane into the airport in Orlando - thank God I was prepared) when the floodgates opened again, only for a few hours. Then more spotting until the day after I got home from vacation (how nice of my body to spare this happening over vacation) - March 1st - floods for a few hours, then spotting. Now, today, I wake up, RUN to the bathroom, and off and on all day (and I DO mean off and on) I am flowing like mad, only to be followed by a few hours of next to nothing. I cannot take it anymore!

I am going to the Ob/Gyn next week for my annual (had to cancel the first appointment in February because I had my period - oh wait... was that a REAL period or just a momentary flood?

) and I am scared to death! A year ago I had a pelvic ultrasound for other issues, which came back normal, so I keep telling myself that if it's cancer, at least it's only been there less than a year...

My aunt died in 1979 (original site of cancer was cervix; she never had children, if that matters), and both my mom and sister had hysterectomies in their 40's (I'm 48.5 right now). So of course, I am convinced I am dying of the Big C. Oh, and the past few days, I have pressure in my lower abdomen (which 6 months ago, I would not have thought twice about since I always got this either when I was ovulating or when I got my period) which has me convinced that I have a tumor pressing on something.
Had my blood work done in January by my GP - I called today to specifically ask about my FSH level - it was
5. I asked what that meant, and the nurse laughed and said it needs to be about 55 to even consider menopause????????? Then what is all this stuff I'm feeling???????
Can anyone help me feel better?
Sorry to ramble, and I know I have posted all of this before, but I"m scared, mad, and getting very depressed about this...