Not sure if my cycles are trying to start back up or not. I haven't had a period since June 2006. I have heard when we start into peri-menopause some women continue to get their cycles and some don't. I seem to feel like I'm getting mine on occasion but it never appears. The tiredness comes and goes. Tuesday night I was full of energy and dancing around my bedroom and then *boom* I am tired the next day and am overly tired today. Maybe cuz of an overactive dream I had and my honey had to wake me up from a dead sleep to get ready for work. uck! At least he doesn't shake me awake but kisses me awake which is far more pleasant.
I have the stupid spare tire...just started accumulating on my mid-section over the past couple of years. I feel like I am walking or sitting with a stupid inner tube strapped around my waist like the ones we use for the kids or someone who can't swim. lol It seems to want to get into the way of everything. Pushes up and makes it harder to get a lungful of air. I have terrible indigestion (at least I think that is what it is). I feel like I have a ball sitting in my belly just under the sternum and I get a wicked pressure in my chest from time to time. I get dizzy spells on occasion or just a loss of balance and feel like my entire head is radiating some sort of heat and I get itchy. Today I am just feeling blah and as if I am in a total fog. My eyes especially are extremely tired. I feel like I could easily climb into bed and go fast to sleep. That is probably what I need to do but since I'm working I can't. I've never felt this crappy in my life. Why is it that when we turn of a certain age we seem to just start falling apart? lol I am going to be turning 50 in March and I thought at first that this milestone wouldn't bother me but its starting to. I get the anxiety attacks even when I don't feel like there is anything to be anxious about. Thoughts of death and cancer and all that gobbledy gook and I lay in bed at night and try to use breathing exercises to calm myself down. My heart races or palpitates and I feel like my entire inner body is vibrating. I can't just relax...every single muscle in me is tense. I hate this.