My penis is numb, though not to a great extent. I have masterbated excessively in the past and I believe this is the source of my problem. I have also had ways of masturbating which were abnormal, such as face down position placing great pressure on my penis, which in addition to having a numb penis I have a very curved penis. I also have a problem with having excessive skin on the body of the penis, also coming from the past habits. I also seem unable to have the same control over stopping urine flow as I did in the past. Other than that I am able to have and hold and erection and have orgasms somewhat normally. I have never used any drugs or alcohol or have had any surgery.
I don't know if there are any treatment available to bring back lost sensations and also address the other problems. I have heard of things like steroid injections, rubbing cream, etc, but I'm not sure what to trust. If anyone can describe all the ranges of treatment, what they do, how expensive they are, etc, it would be greatly appreciated. Before I go to see a urologist, neurologist, etc, I want to know what they could potentially do for me. I want to know if I need to do something now or whether I can wait a few years.
This problem is really making me depressed. I am unable to pursue any relationship with girls because I fear I can't have a fulfilling sexual relationship. I fear sex would be a very disappointing event for me. I think about suicide constantly, but not so intent on doing it but more fantasizing for an end to it all. I know life is not all about sex, and I try to keep telling myself that, but I feel that it is a huge part of life that I am missing out on and may never regain again.