ManDan

Ive had a tremendous problem for over 3 months now.
It is killing me!!
Please take your time to read this i REALLY need help.
This will be extremely long but i need someone to help me...please read this little essay..

It started 3 months back, i noticed on the top of my penis on the gland, it look like a tiny bit of the skin was kinda peeling. It wasjust a little circle like thing at the top around the "hole".

It went away in a day and then i noticed a slight red patch on the gland.
It was dry and looked cracked kinda.
I got worried but assumed it would go away.
It didnt.
It kinda felt like it burnt sometimes and it burnt ocasinally when i urinated but not bad.

Went to see a doctor, kept going back to the clinic 3 or 4 times at least.

First they tested me for Bladder and tract infection, then clamydia and gonorrea (and HIV and Hepatitis on my request) it came back clear.
They said it might be an allergic reaction from the condom.
Got some cream, it didnt help so i went back.
Said it might be my prostate that was inflamed, they checked it and put me on antibiotics for 10 days.
No improvement.

I went back the last time, then i showed a rash on my thigh ive had for almost two year and the doctor was like, ah that is a fungal infection.
She said it must have spread to the glands, and that they can be quite stubborn.

I got some antifungal cream and used it on my thigh and on the glands for a good while and the rash on my thigh has cleared up completely.
The gland hasnt...

So I went to see another doctor.
First he just looked at it and said fungal infections of the gland are pretty rare, and that it might just be an infection of some sort, that most men get them sometimes and that it goes away with time...that it can be bacterial or viral and if its viral medication wont really help.

So I got some pills that didnt help at all.

Then the weird thing was, for a while there about a month after, it didnt hurt as much. The redness was pinkish and it wasnt as sensitive i could have sex and everythign with no problems.
Then just one day i woke up and the whole gland pretty much was really red and sore and the skin felt really dry and coarse, so did the foreskin.

Put some of my old fungal cream on it and in 2 days it felt softer and wasnt as sore at all.

Went to see my doctor again and he said that it does sound like fungus, the only other thing it could really be would be herpes, and he said that it is NOT herpes he said he has seen tons of cases and thats not what i have.

So now i have a new cream that he says is more potent.
Have been using it for 5 days now and I havent really seen any results.
Its still dry and red/pinkish and has the little cracks at the top, and it is still sore, sex is out of the question.

This is really ruining my whole life.. I am under TONS of stress as it is without medical problems...I am supposed to be on prozak i have problems with stress and depression, and this is just the last straw...

No one seems to understand.
It REALLY is killing me, I am so depressed I cant enjoy anything anymore...life really really really sucks.
My fiancee is there and she helps me out alot but its so hard because it has to go away.
I am even EXTREMELY suicidal lately, she is the only reason I havent done anything unrational.

This cream has to help.
I have spent 900 dollars on doctors and i cant afford anything else.
Just moved into my own place, and i have tons of expense i am flat broke.
This is my last chance.
I am so worried...

Whats wrong with me? Is it fungal? I hope so and I hope it will go away right away but i really dont know..
Anyone with a similar experience..

This is really really long i know and sorry..I just have no one to turn to and i am so fed up...
Please any reply will be appreciated.
Thank you for reading, doubt anyone will though..

PS
For the record, I am uncircumsized and I am in a steady relationship and we use protection at all times.I have had one encounter with unprotected sex and that was about 21 months ago. No problems until now.I am 22 years old.


[This message has been edited by ManDan (edited 10-19-2003).]