(I've already posted this elsewhere but I am really desperate for some answers.)
I'm not really sure what I was thinking and I know I was being stupid but for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to try and massage my prostate for self stimulation. It worked and I think I tried it about 4 times over the course of about a week and a half.
On the fourth (last) time I experienced some pain the next day. At first I assumed I'd pulled a muscle in my leg but it wasn't long before I noticed where the pain was. This was 5 days ago now and I hadn't really considered the consequences until I did a google search out of curiosity and there's some really terrifying stories.
I think I massaged too roughly because the sites I found explaining how to do it didn't really warn about any consequences. I have stopped now of course,
There was no blood and I checked my stool last night and everything appeared to be normal (ie there's no blood, I have no idea if it's the exact shade of brown or whatever I should've checked).
To begin with the pain was quite bad and I had to walk with a slight limp, it felt like something was tapping my testicles whenever I walked which was obviously quite uncomfortable. However, now I think the pain is a bit weaker. Although I still feel it, I don't need to walk with a limp anymore even at a fast pace. I'm a bit worried that it's just because I've gotten used to it rather than because it actually has got better, but it's definitely less noticeable.
I am terrified of the idea of seeing a doctor because I am a teenager and the thought of explaining this to them is worrying enough but I don't think I'd be able to tell my mother how it happened so if anyone has any advice, please share it!
Update: Today I did some exercise and I think it made it marginally worse but it is still better than it was to begin with. Is it possible it's just bruised?
I knew fingernails were an obvious hazard, but until looking to see what you're talking about, I had no idea prostate massage could be so fraught with danger. Wow, good to know!
The prostate has a number of softer things attached to it (look at a diagram to see), I would guess that you might have bruised one of these, maybe a seminal vesicle or one of the tubes in the area. The prostate itself can be bruised too, but it seems like you'd be able to tell if that's what it was. I really don't know anything about this, but I would imagine a bruise to one of these glands or tubes could take quite a while to heal.
Has the pain affected your sexual function? Does it hurt to ejaculate? Have you since the pain began? Does it hurt or feel like it touches where it hurts to urinate?
Thank you so much for the reply! I really hope it is just that.
I am able to get an erection and ejaculate as I normally would, and I don't think there's anything wrong with the semen (sorry for this, but I suppose it's necessary to know) although I don't tend to analyse it usually... but there was definitely no blood or anything like that.
It seems to be slightly worse after the exercise but less painful than what it was originally (although I'm a bit worried that it's just because I'm getting used to it rather than because it's actually getting better).
After lots of research I may in fact have a varicocele.
Although this sounds like good news I am now even more worried that it is because of something else. It seems like too much of a coincidence to have just suddenly started.
I think I can safely tell my parents now that I want to see a doctor because:
"If a varicocele develops in a teenager, then your doctor may wish to monitor the growth of the testes. For example, an annual measurement of the testes may be advised. This may help to clarify if a testis is not growing to its full size."
However, I saw something somewhere about sudden varicocele's in older men being caused by problems higher in the abdomen.
I'm worried there's some sort of blockage in the prostate area caused by my "massage" that's led to compensation in the scrotum?
Does anyone have any idea if this is true?
When I do go to the doctors I'll ask my parents to wait outside obviously so hopefully it won't cause any suspicion but I'm still really nervous.