Is this right, or am I just paranoid? - Mental Health Message Board

blueange1 · 05-14-2004, 01:30 PM

Hi!
I posted a message a few weeks ago about me going back to the doctors for anxiety. But first heres some history about me...
I was first depressed a year and a half ago and was taking Lexapro 5mg a day. I was on it for about 2 months and I felt so much better. I was serverly depressed then, I'd cry about everything, I spent most of my time sleeping and I had many suicidal thoughts. During the second month of Lexapro I moved, and had so many things to plan and deal with, so I just stopped taking it.

Fast forward to present time... I've been having crying rages once a week, but most of the time I am fine in the day. Most of the time I feel like I have no energy and the day is just 'blah' and I worry about class assignments and things like that. Its always at night when I feel upset. I went back to the doctor and they put me back on Lexapro 10mg this time. I told them that I have unwanted violent images in my head when I am in a crying rage. its only happened 2-3 times in the last month. I get anxiety attacks when I am crying also, I've had one in the last month.

I guess what I am getting at is... I am not sure if I need medicine? I know when I was depressed, everyday was a challenge. My anxiety only happens like I said once or twice a week. I told the people I talked to at the mental health office all these things and they just threw me back into the medicine.

I guess what I am trying to ask is, am I really taking the right step, going back to medicine even though my symptoms aren't as bad?? This is my second day back on the lexapro; last night I felt so SO DIZZY the room was spinning and I couldn't move, otherwise I'd throw up where I was laying. Having that side affect made me think twice about going back to medicine.

spreeville · 05-14-2004, 07:56 PM

Have you ever tried therapy? If not, maybe that will help instead of going on medication again. If you feel uneasy about it in the least then you probably shouldn't take it.
Notice how when you stopped you went back to the way you were? Maybe therapy will help you put a permanent stop to this. It will not be easy though.

Jenneh · 05-15-2004, 12:53 PM

i'd agree.
generally, medecine is used as a short term way of coping and getting thru the day... but, to stop the symptons from reaccurring simply when u come off the medecine, you need to try therapy instead.
if you feel like you dont want to go on the medecine anymore, then don't take it. just explain to the doctor you want to go into therapy with a clear head or sumthing.
but, if the depression was as severe as u are explaining, i'd stick with it.

Jen xxx