silverandgold

What is going on with me? Just recently (past couple years or so) it seems I tend to become emotionally attached to things more so than normal. It can be a person, an animal, even an inanimate object. Some recent examples -- my fish died. I only had him a few months, and I never even really cared about fish before. But because I fed him/cared for him, etc., and he was "mine", I was crushed. I cried for days. I was too embarassed to really tell people just how upset I was. My boyfriend knew I was upset and then went out and bought me another pet (one I decided I could not keep and had to return to the pet store). I had the little animal for only 2 days and giving him back to the pet store, I was a mess. You would think I was giving my child up for adoption!!! I don't understand this tendency to latch on to something like that to the point where it brings pain that is unwarranted. I even have some stuffed animals that, God forbid they were ever lost, I would be devastated. Even the thought of losing them brings tears to my eyes. Even my "boyfriend" is another example of latching on in an unhealthy way. One of the biggest reasons I am with him is because I feel bad for him and want to make sure he is taken care of and "ok". He loves me, but I don't feel the same - I just worry about him, hope he's ok, feel guilty more so like a mom than a lover. I feel like an emotional basket-case. I wonder if this may have anything to do with hormones? Perhaps my biological clock is ticking (I'm in my mid-30s with no children) and I need something to care for and nuture? Anyone else understand this?