Can anyone help me? - Mental Health Message Board

iceman777 · 12-16-2004, 10:10 AM

Ok, this is not easy for me to do, but, I have decided that it is about time that I asked for help. The easiest way for me to put this is, Have you ever had the feeling like that there is something wrong, not with you, but with everything around you, but you just can't put your finger on what it is? I have had this feeling as far back as I can remember. Like one day, I'm going to wake up from this dream, or someone is going to show up at my house one day, and tell me that my entire life has been some sort of reality TV show, and everyone I know or have ever talked to has been an actor. I also suffer from anxity, (i think).. I'm always looking for an escape route, or for something to defend myself with, I believe this might stem from my past military experiences, so i'm not really worried about, but, it just seems like lately everything has been amplified. Another thing is I have a problem being around lots of people, this past Halloween, I was in a costume store with my wife shopping, and there were around 40 people crammed into one isle in the store, and I was caught in the middle, and I broke. I started flipping out, pushing my way out, like if I didn't get out of there, I was going to die, and as soon as I hit an open spot in the crowd, I got really dizzy, and felt sick to my stomach, and fell down. It only took a few mins to regain my composure, but I couldn't go back into the crowd, and had to leave the store.
My wife has pleaded with me many times to see a doc, but, I have refused. What must be understood is that I HATE going to the doc's office, even for something as small as a checkup. When I was in the military it was mandatory, but, since I got out, I haven't been to a doctors office (5 years). Even now as I write this post, I debate with myself back and forth, on weather or not, I should let my secrets out. I use to be able to push these thoughts to the back of my head and get on with the rest of my day, however, its not so easy anymore. Can anyone let me know whats going on?

Taurus80 · 12-16-2004, 10:55 AM

I've had your same thoughts about this "Truman Show" thing and I'm sure many other people have! I've OCD, mostly revolving around the fear of going crazy...which is why I always think crazy thoughts, just to torture and obsess myself.
Did you get diagnosed by some pdoc? Do these thoughts give you anxiety and/or distress, or they cause you to worry? You might have OCD I think!

iceman777 · 12-16-2004, 10:58 AM

I was editing my orginial post, when I noticed your reply..

survivin · 12-16-2004, 06:13 PM

i have had ptsd for 3 years now and i have had very similar symptoms. it sounds like a doctors visit is in order. i know its hard to trust people. but who knows. it might help. and if he or she just gives you a bunch of BS then just leave. i have learned to not take what the doctors have to say as gospel truth but rather weigh it and decide for yourself

kerry1 · 12-16-2004, 10:26 PM

Geez, that sounds so much like me, how I used to be, that is. I had a similar experience in a store. My mother thought I was being a drama queen, but I really had to get out of there.

Feelings of unreality are symptomatic of depression & other mood disorders. I totally relate to dreading doctors - I want to faint or puke or scream, and my heartbeat goes through the roof. BUT I think you're going to need to tough it out this time and see one! This is not going to go away by itself, and it needs to be correctly diagnosed by a psychiatrist. Don't try OTC herbs - you may have an adverse reaction and then you'd be even worse off. I've tried herbal stuff with a psychiatrist's guidance - I haven't found anything that works except prescription drugs. If I ever do find a natural treatment, it will be under a psych's supervision.

Please oh please see a doctor!! At least you don't have to take your clothes off for this type. I'm sure your wife is wrong some of the time, but not this time!!