Galaxy1

I just wanted to go ahead and mention that I have been diagnosed with different types of depression, which was four years ago. Since then I have been on and off Zoloft. All my life I've been extremely shy, and anxious.

That info might play a part, but it's not what worries me.

I find "bestiality" arousing, and three times in the past year I've used peanut butter to get our dog to lick me. I feel so horrible, and guilty.. and I know it's so wrong and against the law in most of the states. I haven't done it in more than 5 months, but still think about how stupid I am, and what people would say and think if they found out. Would family still love me? Will I go to jail or something?

I've missed my period three times, which I'm going to the gynecologist for the first time to get checked out. But I can only assume it has to do with a combination of my depression, and the anxiety.

I hate going to therapy for several reasons. I've only gone about 4-5 times in the past when I was in the 10th-11th grade and it didn't help much. I felt like a test subject, and that she would laugh or something.

I want to go back to therapy if it will help me feel better.. but what concerns me most if that if I tell her about this Zoophilia thing, will she tell my mom or the cops or something? Will they help me and not judge me? Because I really do want help, I'm scared.

For the past 3 days I'd also been experiencing this pressure and constriction in my chest, like I can't breath. I also feel tingling, lightheaded and weak sometimes. It gets worse when I stand up, or go somewhere. I think it might be because I went off my Zoloft suddenly because I forgot to take it, and then maybe started too again not long ago?

Thank you for reading this, and I hope this is in the right section.