disturbing thoughts.. normal? - Mental Health Message Board

annarayne · 01-11-2005, 08:21 PM

i'm not really sure if this is much concern or not but i've wondered about it for years on end.
since i was young, i would get a lot of fairly disturbing thoughts... things you'd kind of see in movies where someone is possessed or whatever. just different ways a person could get hurt in a situation, and it's almost obssessive (not that i in any way want to obssess on those kinds of thoughts!) they just don't go away. as well, i very often get thoughts about sharp thigns... like, if i'm holding a knife i get this weird feeling and almost impulse then more thoughts come to mind. i've never done anything that my thoughts portray... i could never. these thoughts are very strong though. i sometimes can't even sleep at night because they're reocurring and too horrible.. not a lot can eleviate these thoughts and if i'm trying not to think about it... tends to be stronger. i'll sometimes dream about it and wake up feeling like it's actually happened and i panick.
it doesn't happen all the time, but when it does.. it could last for hours or days. it's very annoying and does bother me in my every day life.
like i said, i don't purposly think these thoughts. anything can trigger it. i avoid pretty much anything sharp if i can, and avoid watching movies that i know will make me think this stuff.
is this something normal to a lot of people? i'm afraid to really ask those i know since if it's something to be concerned about.. well, i think you get the idea. they'd probably not be my friends anymore. any advice and thoughts would be appreciated.. thanks

kiehn · 01-11-2005, 11:59 PM

Go check out the OCD board it's full of people suffering from the same disorder
you describe. Good Luck, K

*music23* · 01-13-2005, 03:21 PM

I do similar things, but I have OCD (as well as other stuff). Sometimes the thoughts are so vivid I cannot concentrate on anything else. And they can get horribly graphic as well. You're not alone in that, that's for sure.
Kristina

teko2000 · 01-14-2005, 08:56 AM

Your not alone. I think most people have weird or disturbing thoughts. If they preoccupy your entire life or a large amount of time then some counseling would help. I remember driving by a large crowd of people standing on the corner and i thought gosh what if someone just ran thier car into them. I was horrified i thought that! I would never act on it, we see movies, read the news and hear of stories that are upsetting and our brain remembers them. Its not like your acting out on your thoughts, give yourself a break. Theres been times where i was putting up knives from the dishwasher and i thought what if i stabbed someone with that. Then i think how horriable that thought just was. I would never do it, it was just a passing thought. so if you have those kind of fleeting thoughts just pass threw it and consintrate on something else. But if it does take allot of your time up you may have OCD. Maybe thats my problem too. I know when i was in a bad relationship i would obsess about my boyfriend and where he was what was he doing and it drove me nuts. I finally got some counseling, dropped him and life is good!