Hey, Chad! I have OCD, too, and I think that most of your problems are stemming from that! I've ruled out mania because you said you aren't hyper and energetic, and that you aren't succeeding in school- usually during mania, a person can think much more clearly and performs better in school. Then, the whole thing with doubting if someone's your friend is definitely OCD. I do this doubting stuff, too, but with things like, "Am I gay?" even though I've always known that I was straight, and even more ironically, "Do I really have OCD? Am I faking?" Only someone with the "doubting disease" would doubt if they actually had OCD! How twisted is that?
Borderline Personality Disorder could be a possibility in addition to the OCD because you mentioned liking somebody and then questioning their abilities as friends, cutting, and rapid moods... It sounds like your thoughts are rushing and you're unable to sleep because of your obsessions and the distress they cause you. Don't feel bad about your slipping grades, though. OCD is found almost exclusively in people with high intelligence because we just think too much, overanalyze everything, and basically get caught in the trap of our own mind. And most people with OCD have a hard time getting their work done. I don't know how I made straight "A's" all through school when I was constantly battling obsessions and avoiding my homework by procrastination because I'd be worrying about doing it "perfectly." The easy fix to boost your grade point average is to simply seek help. Don't be ashamed that you have OCD. If you already have a psychiatrist, I'd think he/she is a good one because it sounds to me that they've diagnosed you correctly. Talk with them about what you're experiencing, and hopefully, they can help restore your life back to the way it was. Good luck, God bless, and always know that there's tons of us on the OCD board if you ever need to talk!
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