why am i so sad? - Mental Health Message Board

lost&confused=( · 12-21-2006, 12:28 PM

hey everyone,
im sorry for bothering you all,
im not too sure what too say, i just need to get out how im feeling,
i just dont feel like me anymore....whoever that was.... im just always sad, the feeling never seems to fully die, its like this aching pain that wont leave me, i dont understand why im like this and i dont know how to fix it. i just feel worthless and no good to anyone, i barely eat anymore, i cant sleep, and when i do i cant bring myself to get out of bed. i dnt want to leave the house and i just want to be alone most of the time.

i feel as though i dont even exist, like im not even real. i cant talk to anyone about it, i just feel that i'll bring them down and most of the time i feel like i cant even hold a conversation, so what the point.... i just want to cry most of the time and feel like im always on the verge of tears.... if this is all there is to life whats the point? i feel useless, like i dont deserve life..... there are so many people starving and dying in the world and im feeling sorry for myself, i feel so guilty about that..... im a big cleanliness freak, but i cnt even find the energy to brush my hair, let alone wash it....

i feel like the world is out to get me.....as tho one bad after another happens..... and even when someting good happens....i feel like i dont deserve it...so find a way to **** it up.....i just want this pain to go away......

babydiva · 12-28-2006, 08:27 AM

Awww. *hugs* I'm sorry. I think your depressed and not just sad. And your not bothering anyone. Thats what this forum is for. I think talking to someone is the best thing you can do. Not everyone is going to think your bothering them with your problems. Have you tried doing things you like? Things that make you smile. I'm sure there's something.

Bill J · 12-28-2006, 11:02 AM

Dear Lost & Confused,

Sounds like you're suffering from depression and I'm no stranger to that and don't worry you are not alone, alot of people suffer from depression but nobody likes to talk about it because they feel weak or ashamed. There's plenty of help for this and you've made the right move writing into this website because you'll be able to correspond with people who are going through the same thing and who understand, you'll also find lots of love and compassion which is what you need right now, so don't worry it's not the end of the world even though it might feel like it so just be gentle with yourself and keep reminding yourself that you're a good person who just needs a little help right now.

God Bless and take care!

Bill J, Toronto, Canada

lost&confused=( · 12-28-2006, 01:16 PM

thank you babydiva and bill j for writing back with your kind words....
its almost like living is a effort and breathing a struggle, im hanging in there, almost waiting for the feelings to pass....i think that i probally do need help but sometimes its difficult to bring yourself to talk to someone, for fear that you wont be understood.....
thank you both again
x

babydiva · 12-29-2006, 11:16 AM

Awww. Your welcome *hugs*