Don't know what to do. - Mental Health Message Board

merjn · 01-15-2007, 07:41 PM

Hello all.
This would be my first posting in a board like this. But I am an Admin and mod on other pc help sites so I am pretty sure this is in the right forum.

I have been self mutilating since around age of 12. I am now 33 and for some reason it has come back with a vengeance. I only did 3 small cuts last night but I stopped myself as I am married with children. I do it where no one will not see it (upper shoulder), but usually when I do this I feel much better in the morning. Well this morning I felt worse.

I take Klonopin 1 mg three times a day and lexapro 20mg once a day for Panic Disorder (guess thats why I stay in and help so many with pc problems

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Thing is I never have any energy anymore, I do not feel depressed, nor anxious. Don't want to play with the kids but still help online. I am always tired, have been for the past 6 months. Only thing that seems to give me energy are Vicodin

When I have Kidney stones. *(no only have taken them as prescribed)

Anyone know what could be wrong? Sorry for the long winded post but I do not have anyone else to talk or type to.

Yours Truly
Merjn

firenice · 01-16-2007, 12:19 AM

I presume you're seeing a psychiatrist or medical doctor to get the prescription, but are you able to talk through these things with him/her or is it just for medication? If not, are you seeing a therapist with whom you can talk about this? You indicated at the end of the post that you don't have anyone to talk to so I'm guessing you don't and I think you need someone like that.

You say the cutting has come back for some reason. Do you have any idea what that reason is - or reasons are? How long have you been not cutting prior this episode? What do you mean by coming back with a vengeance?

I certainly don't know what is wrong. But, I bet with some support and guidance, you can find out.

li_low · 01-16-2007, 12:39 AM

hey there..kids important..drop the online help..take kids to park..let ur energy off that way..u will only end up with guilt..especiallly since u say u have panic also

keyboardplaya · 01-16-2007, 08:00 AM

I don't mean this in a "why are you here" kind of way, but I think you'd find the most help and understanding in the "Self-Injury Recovery" board.

Sannah · 01-16-2007, 08:07 AM

Merjn, I wasn't going to answer this post until you replied to firenice because he seemed to cover what I would have said anyway. Now I just wanted to say that more support can be found on either the depression or the PTDS boards rather than the self-injury board.