What disorder is this!!!??? - Mental Health Message Board

mugz99 · 02-08-2007, 08:08 PM

Hi, I'm a 23y male and I have had a long history of mental illness. I have over the years suffered from social anxiety, panic attacks, bulimia, depression, substance abuse, chronic fatigue, ADD and BPD. And recently a thought has occured to me. What is more likely, that I have suffered from each one of these disorders independently, or that each one of the disorders is the result of a single disorder manifesting itself in different ways? Although I have overcome bulimia, panic attacks, and substance abuse I still have residual feelings of mild depression and social anxiety, with the addition now, of unprovocated bouts of despair where my emotions are jumbled and unclear. During which I feel the weight of the worlds problems. So much so, that all I can do is lay on my back and stare at the ceiling, wanting to explode but not having the will to do so. I feel over weight while I'm emptying all at once. It's the ultimate feeling of blaahhhh-AAAAHHHHH!! Does anyone have any insight into *** is going on. I've never been suicidal, and I've never had a manic episodes. I'm at a complete loss as to what kind of disorder might manifest itself in so many different ways. Any advice or suggestions you might have would be very much appreciated. Thanx.

Sannah · 02-09-2007, 06:45 AM

Mugz, congrats on overcoming bulemia, substance abuse, and panic attacks. This is a HUGE accomplishment! You have never been manic and they diagnosed you with Bipolar? Unresolved anxiety can cause depression. Do you think that maybe all of this started with anxiety?

mugz99 · 02-10-2007, 12:54 PM

Thank you for your reply. And no I haven't been diagnosed bipolar, I'm just trying to figure out what would cause me to exhibit such a wide range of symptoms. And why I feel transient bouts of really intense depair for no apparent reason. It might be anxiety causing it, but then whats causing the anxiety? I also wonder why sometimes I can't make myself shut up even when I want to. From what I read about bipolar disorder it said hypomania and mania last for long periods of time. My symptoms never last more than a few hours, but they do tend to happen a few days in a row. Thanx again for the reply.

avinitinatt · 02-10-2007, 04:03 PM

You sound like your main issue is anxiety. Bullimia, panic,depression, substance abuse etc... are all symptoms of an anxiety disorder, they are just all the different ways someone can react when they are suffering with anxiety. I have suffered many different illness myself, they are all illnesses in their own right, but they all stem from the same place, hope this makes sense x

mugz99 · 02-10-2007, 06:24 PM

Thanx for the reply. Yeah that makes sense. But to make sure I understand you properly, your saying that anxiety is the issue more than likely, and that the cocaine abuse, bulimia, and panic attacks have been different avenues for dealing with it? Do you know if anxiety can cause seemingly random episodes of despair? These episodes are what brought me to this forum. I had always been able to deal with the panic attacks despite how terrible they felt, but these feelings of utter hopelessness and jumbled thoughts REALLY get to me. I appreciate the input, it's nice talking with someone who actually understands what I'm feeling.