i have some real issues. i don't know what to do. it's embarassing for me to talk about but better than going to see a shrink.
So i've always thought i've been really really shy, like not talking to people. I've heard stuck up before, but i'm not. It's so hard for me to talk to people. whenever i try to make an effort i feel like i say the stupidest things or think about rejection among my peers. i'm always thinking about what should i say so that these people will like me?
i'm about to start my first year at a community collge where most of my senior class will be going and where nearly nobody is new. So these people already see me as (for lack of better word) uncool. i've just realized i pretty much have no friends.
I want to be accepted and be able to be comfortable around people. Do people not like me for the way i am? maybe i come across as just weird
. I'm jealous of my boyfriend, because he has friends, and the few friends that i have, i am jealous that they have lives. I feel like i have no life
, because i don't really have friends. The people who i call my friends i feel like i have to impress them or seem more cool and not like such a wet blanket. I want to be a fun person who everyone likes just as much as that one girl. I hate being jealous all the time and just being a loner. I know this is all wrong and i don't want to be that loner girl person. so am i an anti-social.
please anyone if you have any advice. I definatly need some.