I did a ****** search on SPD and it sounds like what I could have. Alot of the characteristic seem to fit mostly:
*have difficulty following conversations or stories
*have difficulty extracting the key points from a conversation or story; they tend to get lost in the details.
I had a glucose fasting test in beginning of the year. That came back normal. I just think the dizziness is from not eating when I should.
I been seeking treatment for for my SA/PA since 1998. I been on so many different meds and various therpy (CBT) Right now I am only taking klonapin when needed not in therapy anymore. I am disabled due to this and it's really hard to get the proper treatment on a limited income
I can pretty much pinpoint where the anxiety came from. I grew up in a dysfunctional home. My father was an alcoholic and would hit my mom all the time. It went on for 14 yrs till he finally left. I seen way too much a child shouldn't seen in those yrs. I recall being really nervous and scared most of the time. Wetting the bed - grinding my teeth ( reason I needed a all my teeth extracted) After my father left my mom pretty much drew inward and really didn't talk to me. I would try and talk to her and she would just ignore me. That made me really angry and frustrated living in same house and feeling so isolated and lonely. I know now all those yrs of her being abused it just her down shutdown emotionally. Then another thing she liked to do was keep me in house not allow me out it was forbidden. I just wanted to hang out with my friends or go catch a movie with them. She wasn't having that and would make my life in that house harder than it was already. It was boring staying in that house with no one to talk to - the loneliness really got me and that where drugs came in to dull the pain. I think by my mom keeping me in it really messed with me developing social skills and I also think she was afraid she was going to lose me - like how my father left (but in my mind that was best thing) I was also sexually abused as a child. So i really have a hard time trusting people in general. What really brought my anxiety out into the light was when my mom passed away in 1996. I was suppose to pick her up to take her to a doctors appointment she had been really sick. I walked in the house heard the alarm clock going off and I first thought it must be the sleeping pills she was taking that she didnt get up. I walk in the room turn the clock off and try to wake her up. I touched her hand and it was ice cold and stiff I flew back 10 feet. I called EMS and there was nothing they could do she had passed away during the night. She died of COPD - Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disorder. After that I started experience panic attacks. In 98 I had to quit work it was so bad and havent been back to work since.
I don't know what exactly trigger the anxiety. I can be having a wondeful day and it hits me. When it does I do the best I can to keep myself relaxed - may it be listen to music - take a bath. Then try and put things into prospective and challenge the thoughts that are rushing through my head. Like when my heart is pounding and my 1st thought is I am having a heart attack - I tell myself this will pass its just my anxiety i'm not going to die - maybe not the best coping techniques but has saved my but a few times