Severe anxiety and other mental health problems
I am scared I am losing my mind. I have severe anxiety problems, I am always worried about my health for one. I haven't been able to eat properly, no solid foods, in about 4 years now.
About a month ago I had my first sleepwalking episode and it really scared me and I am scared of what I might do or could have done during this sleepwalking episode. My husband said I woke up at like 3am and started trying to wake my kids up for school. He said I was incoherent and he was trying to talk to me but I was just mumbling. He said I woke up, went in and tried to wake the kids up then went back to bed and went back to sleep. He said I had a glazed look in my eyes like I wasn't all there. Of course I wasn't, I think I remember getting up and knocking something off the nightstand table next to me and it startled me and that is when I got up but not really clear. Sleepwalking in adults is not normal is it? I am afraid of hurting someone or myself if I do this again. I have never had anything like this happen to me before. I have been under severe stress and anxiety though over many things, like my own health, money, worried about not making enought money and paying bills, and everything just eating at me all at once.
I watched a scary movie the other night with my husband and I have been disturbed since then. I have nightmares early in the mornings right before I wake up usually, and I have disturbing thoughts that run through my head, about seeing bad things happen to the people that I love or bad dreams about something happening to them. I had a really weird dream about being locked in a closet by monsters this morning and woke up and have been on edge all day. I want the anxiety to go away, I want the disturbing thoughts to go away. I think stress and anxiety are a lot of my problem too. I feel as though I am going to lose it at any minute sometimes. And back to the sleepwalking episodes. Has anyone ever had anything like this happen to you? I am scared to go get help, I have to go to the reduced based on income clinic if I get help because I have no insurance, my husband also went there and they treat people like garbage! I don't want to go to them mental hospital but I want help!
Please any advice is greatly appreciated!