Re: why does my mind want to think bad thoughts
I think being OCD or whatever is just about having thoughts that run wild. Some of us go through a stage like this as a kid, too. (I know my thoughts ran wild and I had all kinds of nonsensical thoughts, some about God, some about sex, and almost everything else, when I was about ten or so when I started puberty.) What's going on is, there is some nutritional or neurological or psychological reason your mind is out of control running wild.
You probably don't have enough of a certain amino acid or something pumping in your brain and are thus having trouble controlling your thoughts. There are mental techniques that can help you learn to control thoughts, but there probably is a biological component and you have to solve the biological reason first with a medication or a nutritional supplement.