I have really disturbing thoughts, never about the same thing, but usually a friend, or a family member being hurt in some way, but I always get hurt through what's happened. Emotionally or physically.
The thoughts are really repetitive, and it will take months for them to go away.
Each time it repeats something new gets added in and makes it worse.
It can cause me to not do anything for hours and not think about anything else, and it seems like it goes away but it comes back after a few days.
I also have big mood swings, and will stop myself from going out anywhere for days for what seems like no reason.
Help?!
Ah, man I so wish I could help you, but I have the same problem o.o I've had this problem for 3 years (as far as I can remember) it sucks, doesn't it? They're getting pretty bad though, like making me want to put myself in a position to get hurt o.O I know it's hard, but I've been trying too- When you find yourself thinking about whatever it is, try to stop, think about a Television show or something funny that's happened that day or something
I try to, and to some degree I learnt to almost control them, but that makes it worse when I can't stop them.
It's awful, Is it almost like you dream it at times? Or is that just me.
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Originally Posted by laceymay
Ah, man I so wish I could help you, but I have the same problem o.o I've had this problem for 3 years (as far as I can remember) it sucks, doesn't it? They're getting pretty bad though, like making me want to put myself in a position to get hurt o.O I know it's hard, but I've been trying too- When you find yourself thinking about whatever it is, try to stop, think about a Television show or something funny that's happened that day or something
hah ayeah! i get that too o.O it's weird, isn't it? D:
I have disturbing thoughts also. They are different thoughts about just about anything, Ex. standing beside the bedside of a dying loved one, thinking and visualizing my own downward spiral, and the details that are in these thoughts are nothing short of spectacular, it's as though I'm watching a movie in my mind! I go outdoors now for as long as it takes to slow the thoughts down, hot baths seem to help alot too. I also take a low dose of clonazepam, it has helped some. You're not alone even if you feel like you are.
I have disturbing thoughts also. They are different thoughts about just about anything, Ex. standing beside the bedside of a dying loved one, thinking and visualizing my own downward spiral, and the details that are in these thoughts are nothing short of spectacular, it's as though I'm watching a movie in my mind! I go outdoors now for as long as it takes to slow the thoughts down, hot baths seem to help alot too. I also take a low dose of clonazepam, it has helped some. You're not alone even if you feel like you are.
Like mine, like a movie, but it's odd.
I explain it as watching a downward spiral too.
I might go to a doctors about it, but it's not just the thoughts that are an issue. There's alot more to it, and it's all really hard to explain, it's weird.
I've kinda adjusted to it all, but it get worse every now and then.
That's very interesting *nods* Sometimes if I have thoughts, and I kind of get over them like... so that they don't affect me anymore, if they're really vivid like you said a movie playing in your head, maybe you could like, write a story/book. I write all the time, I have 2 I'm considering publishing (one from a thought, one just for fun xD)
sometimes i have thoughts of being a completely different person, and how i would be if i was that certain person, and it makes me want to be that person, however that person is not a very good person, one that i truly would not want to be (I'm a good girl, work somewhat hard at school, stays out of trouble) and i put those ideas into a story and make it as vivid and adventurous, so instead of actually going out and doing these things, i put them in a story and no longer feel that want.
The disturbing thoughts are a challenge, there is more to the story, I believe due to living in fear, chaos and having no support systems through my early years, disturbing thoughts are a bi product. Everyday I remind myself that all the things that cause my fear are long gone, and the folks involved never think about it either, just me. It's time to close that chapter, and be happy. I'd like to stop thinking about it and living it out...just have to get my mind to accept that, that the rug won't be pulled out from under my feet again...I appreciate your thoughts, thanks..keep talking, I'm listening, I've never shared this before and it feels so freeing to know it's not just me..
I also suffer from disturbing thoughts. It is aweful and very distressing. If i stood at the edge of a cliff i would instantly think what it would be like to jump.
They are like bad dreams, except i'm awake.
I have booked a holiday abroad with my family, first one for six years and i am not looking forward to it at all. I keep having this recurring thought that i'm asleep and i sleep walk and throw myself off the balcony. I am scared, and don't even want to go on the holiday anymore.
I constantly have horrible thoughts like this, some to horrible to mention. Someone on another post mentioned it is something to do with OCD. This would make sense because i certainly thinking i have OCD.
It's weird, it thought there was something wrong with me and i was alone. It is just so horrible that you cannot turn these thoughts off.
I think the only thing that relieves my mind of these thoughts for a while, is something other destressing thing which occupies my mind.
I am suffering anxiety and depression from work, this currently occupies all of my mind, which i suppose is good because i really couldn't cope with both conditions.
I also suffer from disturbing thoughts. It is aweful and very distressing. If i stood at the edge of a cliff i would instantly think what it would be like to jump.
They are like bad dreams, except i'm awake.
I have booked a holiday abroad with my family, first one for six years and i am not looking forward to it at all. I keep having this recurring thought that i'm asleep and i sleep walk and throw myself off the balcony. I am scared, and don't even want to go on the holiday anymore.
I constantly have horrible thoughts like this, some to horrible to mention. Someone on another post mentioned it is something to do with OCD. This would make sense because i certainly thinking i have OCD.
It's weird, it thought there was something wrong with me and i was alone. It is just so horrible that you cannot turn these thoughts off.
I think the only thing that relieves my mind of these thoughts for a while, is something other destressing thing which occupies my mind.
I am suffering anxiety and depression from work, this currently occupies all of my mind, which i suppose is good because i really couldn't cope with both conditions.
Anyway thanks for listening
Paul
Feeling alone with it is the worst. It's why I posted on here, I wouldn't normally do something like that, but I knew there had to be someone out there who felt the way I do.
It sounds like your are worse than mine though, mine have been getting progressively worse since I was about 11, well that's when I remember first having them. Mine go away for a while, like I can go a week maybe even two without any, but they come back for months at a time. I definitely have them more of the time than not.
I also suffer from disturbing thoughts. It is aweful and very distressing. If i stood at the edge of a cliff i would instantly think what it would be like to jump.
They are like bad dreams, except i'm awake.
I have booked a holiday abroad with my family, first one for six years and i am not looking forward to it at all. I keep having this recurring thought that i'm asleep and i sleep walk and throw myself off the balcony. I am scared, and don't even want to go on the holiday anymore.
I constantly have horrible thoughts like this, some to horrible to mention. Someone on another post mentioned it is something to do with OCD. This would make sense because i certainly thinking i have OCD.
It's weird, it thought there was something wrong with me and i was alone. It is just so horrible that you cannot turn these thoughts off.
I think the only thing that relieves my mind of these thoughts for a while, is something other destressing thing which occupies my mind.
I am suffering anxiety and depression from work, this currently occupies all of my mind, which i suppose is good because i really couldn't cope with both conditions.
I also suffer from disturbing thoughts. It is aweful and very distressing. If i stood at the edge of a cliff i would instantly think what it would be like to jump.
They are like bad dreams, except i'm awake.
I have booked a holiday abroad with my family, first one for six years and i am not looking forward to it at all. I keep having this recurring thought that i'm asleep and i sleep walk and throw myself off the balcony. I am scared, and don't even want to go on the holiday anymore.
I constantly have horrible thoughts like this, some to horrible to mention. Someone on another post mentioned it is something to do with OCD. This would make sense because i certainly thinking i have OCD.
It's weird, it thought there was something wrong with me and i was alone. It is just so horrible that you cannot turn these thoughts off.
I think the only thing that relieves my mind of these thoughts for a while, is something other destressing thing which occupies my mind.
I am suffering anxiety and depression from work, this currently occupies all of my mind, which i suppose is good because i really couldn't cope with both conditions.
Anyway thanks for listening
Paul
Hi Paul,
It seems that your plate is way to full, anxiety I believe plays a major role in these thoughts. Each time you have a disturbing thought , ask yourself, Is this a rationale thought or irrational thought, depending on the answer you can self talk yourself down......enjoy your time with family, it may seem you don't want to go now but you'll be happier once you're there...look after yourself...
Thanks for your response. I am currently off work for stress/anxiety/depression. It has been a battle for me for the last 10 months. I am finally getting some Mental Health Specialist treatment. I am seeing them to help me cope with anxiety, i wonder if i should mention the disturbing thoughts i also have, whether it is connected or something??
I wish i never had a care in the world. It is so easy to look at others and think they would never been in the position i'm in. Mind you, i guess deep down you don't know what anyone is thinking.
You're really having a rough go of it right now....I would mention disturbing thoughts to my Dr. it all is connected, I've told my Dr. about mine...as for other people, they all have their own issues, this happens to be ours and it will improve, so keep fighting the good fight!!!!
How are things with you? Don't worry about that balcony....I'll tell you why...also, is the trip still a go? Joy
I would like to chat more with you on P. M. if that idea sits o. k. with you....
I had a disturbing thought today, my true love in a horrific situation, I snapped out of it just before I started a chemical imbalance in my brain with these thoughts that take on a reality that just isn't happening...my body and mind live out the true feelings of how I would feel in that situation, if it were real. This happened this morning at around 9:00 a.m., driving with my love into beautiful Northern Ontario bush...for ice fishing. The sun was glistening, deep blue sky, perfect temperature.....so what's that crap all about? I choose a nice, loving, non-chaotic life ..I'm living it! So why the intrusive thoughts...I just don't get it. I'm happy and content...minus, disturbing thoughts..my goodness it's gets so tiring...can anyone relate?
I sometimes get this too...to the extent that if I'm worried about a loved one (even just slightly), I'll often get uncontrollable images in my head of them being hurt in some way. I quickly go NO! (in my head) and push them away.
For me I think it's stress as well as guilt. I feel I have a lot of things I've done wrong and that have been left unsaid and I am absolutely terrified of losing these people...so terrified.
I too have thoughts that involve my loved ones, there terrible and i wish i could shut them out. I think it is the people i love the most that i have thoughts of them being hurt. It is so distressing.
Puffy,
I am more than happy to chat on P.M. if you like. It is good to chat to someone who can relate.
I recently was staying at my parents’ house (this past weekend) for a quick visit, and I never have these thoughts and fears when I’m there. I don’t fear phone calls in the night, I don’t have horrible images come to me…because (1) I am there with them and so any phone call isn’t them so that’s a relief to know, (2) if something DID happen somehow, at least I’d BE there and wouldn’t have to go through the terrible ordeal of getting that phone call, then having to try and get a flight to be with them, and (3) I feel guilt for living in another state from my parents and so when I’m with them I’m able to show them how much I love them, and so…the guilt is somewhat lifted momentarily. Yep.
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