jenny, i just wanted to say that i hope my message makes u feel better. i myself am an 18 yr old young woman and i have battled problems with my weight and depression in the past. when i was 14 i went on a crash diet as i was very heavy at the time, over 9 months i lost so much weight that in the end i couldnt stop, from there it turned into overeating until i would eat everything i could find. i did this for about 2 years, binge eating. i used to lie so much to everyone and i never had any trust or faith in anyone. when i changed schools i had depression and i didnt know why i was feeling like it, i didnt want to do anything or go anywhere. all through this i always have battled with my weight, now im at a healthy weight but continuously i still sometimes get urges to binge eat, though not that often. at the time that i was worst, i felt like i was so alone and wanted to die, everyone around me seemed to be coping yet i couldnt even cope with going out to the shops, i was very smart at school and i had never done drugs, smoked or drinked etc and my parents couldnt understand whhat had happened to me. i told them all i just needed to be left alone, for everyone to stop telliong me what to do and think. i saw a pshychologist for several months but refused to take medication for my depression as i was afraid that i would never get off it and i would become addicted to it. i think if in your heart u really believe u can get over it, then it might help. its really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but just remember you are not alone! im sure u are a wonderful person despite what u are going through, give yourself time to focus on thinking along the right terms, eg. if ppl put u down, dont listen to them, like my parents used to say to me that i would end up nowhere and i started believing i would, but i didnt...oneday i got so mad at eveyrone and i decided that i would just ignore all of it and think posotive. remember, the days when there was once a time u were happy? try and base your thinking along what u remmeber from those days.! i will write more later. take care for now! |