am i so ill that they will not tell me? - Mental Health Message Board

ebonyrose · 09-21-2003, 07:00 AM

hi i have replied to a couple of posts, but i thought i might ask you guys for help. i have many mental illnesses, they range from depression, self harm, phycosis, anxiety/panic and many others. i only know this because i read my refferal sheets but if i ask my phyciatrist she wont tell me what is wrong with me. am i so ill that i wont be able to take in what is wrong with me? i feel as if i dont exist, like i am just a host for something more, i feel like i am being watched constantly, like when i go to the bath room i feel there are cameras recording me. like i am a government experiement. i see things that no 1 else sees, but i also see what everyone is made of, or at least i think i see them. like i can see through them and into there souls. i have voices that tell me to do things, mainly hurt myself and others, and although i dont act upon hurting others, i hurt my self, not just by cutting myself, but throwing myself down the stairs, dropping hammers onto my knees, jumping infront of cars. silly things like that. the voices are so over whelming i cant ignore them, sometimes the t.v will talk to me, tell me things that i have longed to know. things like am i worth anything? and i know that these voices are not real but i believe it when they tell me i am worth nothing.
please someone help me to figure out myself.
ebony

HoosierBj · 09-21-2003, 08:46 AM

The ONLY reason I can think of that a psychiatrist may not tell you a diagnosis is if you are underage. And even then I think you should still be told.
If you are over 18 you are cetainly entitled to the information!!

fallen · 09-21-2003, 01:52 PM

Hey ebonyrose-- hmmm that's an interesting question cause i started seeing a psychiatrist a couple weeks ago after having a panic attack (so they called it) at work, i was prescribed meds for depression, i'm also a cutter and they say i have an eating disorder but i went in for one of my appointments i had w/ one of my psychiatrist's residents and he asked me if anyone has told me what my diagnosis is? i said no cause they had never mentioned it to me and he just left it at that..he wouldn't tell me what my 'diagnosis' was..maybe they didn't know or maybe i don't have one

oh well who knows..it kinda makes me wonder though what they are thinkin. Anyways take care i hope things get better for you.

ebonyrose · 09-21-2003, 02:10 PM

thank you all for replying, i am 17 years old, so still legally a minor but i ask and they just wont tell me, i am on many meds for depression, phycosis, anxiety, insomnia etc, etc. it is easier to give someone advice than it is to take it, yes i know i say remember it is not real, but it is harder than it seems, as you probably know. i feel that i will never get better, and how do i know wat to over come when they wont tell me what is wrong.

HoosierBj · 09-21-2003, 05:53 PM

Do you have any family meetings with your doctor? That would be the perfect time to discuss your diagnosis. Better yet, talk to your parents first and explain to them just what you did to us. That you're not afraid of the "label", but that you need to know what you are up against. (If they still don't want to, find out why. Maybe they are afraid of something simple that you can reassure THEM about.)
My doctor is impressed by the amount of digging around on the internet I've done on my own (I'm a Type I Bipolar). Maybe if you express your interest in learning more about what you have?
Are you sure they have even figured out a diagnosis yet? It took them forever to get it right with me!
How long until you are 18??!!

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