mental, withdrawal, or moody? - Mental Health Message Board

antsy1 · 10-16-2003, 02:22 PM

Hey everyone,

I tend to overanalyze, rationalize, and make excuses for everything that happens. I went through alot last summer with this girl that had a psychosis and i didn't even know it because it was a long term relationship, she really screwed with my head badly and I feel like since then I've never really recovered. Towards the end of the summer I tried pot for the first time because of the distress and continued to smoke it sporadically - sometimes once a week and sometimes 3 or 4. I would increase to up to every day at times. By March of this year I was smoking weed almost every night and this summer sometimes multiple times a day. I grew up in a sheltered family where my parents were under heavy influence of a protestant pastor who tried to control the whole congregation (Greater Grace World Outreach) - if you look it up it's watched by many cult organizations. Anyways I moved from a city where I went to a private school and wasn't exposed to more than like 3 people my age at a time my whole life to a suburb where everything was more "normal". Anyways, I recently stopped smoking pot 2 weeks ago because I met a girl who's not only gorgeous but sane.

My problem is that I feel like I overanalyze everything, I rationalize every situation, and I can't help but thinking that both this relationship and myself is going to fail because of my learned behavior. I drive myself crazy thinking about problems and my own anxiety and especially what part of my life it comes from. I also feel like I have alot of built up emotion that I can't release because i'm not sure not only where it comes from but what I can do about it. Do these feelings come from THC withdrawal or is something else I should worry about or go see a therapist or what?

bloodytears · 10-17-2003, 02:29 PM

Hey Antiflag,

Well, I can relate to feeling like I completely overanalyze things... I feel rediculously dumb about it, because i tend to go way deeper into things than they mean. Most things people say day to day mean very little, but to me, they hold hidden meanings.. With their words, actions, thoughts, clothes.. Everything.. So I understand that.. I think you should go see a therapist if you have emotions that you can't communicate about easily.. I have been seeing one for a while, and it has helped.. There, you will be in an environment that is for you to talk without being judged, and you can get everything out if you feel need.. Anyway, take care.. Keep us posted on what you decide.. ~tears

antsy1 · 10-17-2003, 08:45 PM

thanks,

i'm not sure exactly what i'm feeling anxious about but it's definitely gotten much worst. I've got a virus right now but being sick has never made me experience intense anxiety. I almost flipped out tonight and I think it has alot to do with my pot addiction. I started smokin to cover up a pain and now that I stopped it's resurfacing - does that make sense? i feel like if i were high i'd feel better so i'm going to attribute it alot to that - i have a very addictive personality. But as for overanalyzing things I can't stand it anymore and I think i am going to see a therapist.

Thanks alot