Hi everybody, I'm new here and this is my first post. I was inspired to post here, because I've been increasingly worried about my mental state.
I've been treated for depression since my early 20s. Now I'm in my early 40s, with a diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder. Mostly, it's just been the depression, with which I've always dealt with antidepressents (I'm currently on my 7th med).
Over the past I'll say 3 years or so, this problem has been escalating.
I get BAD depersonalization with terrible paranoia and disorganized thoughts, and I can't even function...and it's getting more and more frequent.
I'm genuinely scared sometimes that I won't have any cognitive function left by the time I'm 50 (if I live that long, of course)
Why is this speeding up? I was managing for so long, and now, I lose most of the control over my brain like six times a year...I'm really scared, and my psychiatrist doesn't even know for sure what is wrong with me.
Any recommendations/observations would be most welcome. I'm grateful for any input.